Elsewhere, I'm so sorry that you're going through this! As you can see, there are lots of us going through the same thing. I have several siblin's that are still witnesses, the rest faded out, got disfellowshiped, me I disassociated myself in 1999. What I do is associate with the siblins that aren't witnesses and to hell with the rest of them. The JeHover Witnits have a warped view of love. I hold no malice towards my j.w. siblins, instead have a deep pity for them and feel they are missing out on not having me in their lives. It's their loss! I've surrounded myself around good friends that are more like family to me than my j.w. siblins could ever imagine being. Form your own family. Blood doesn't make you family!!!