I am having flashbacks, I have years convinced myself I made the meetings worse than what they truly were. Guess not!! We all could not be having the same memories if they weren't true. I emember sitting at meeting a very frail skinny scared child knowing I would never be faithful thru these horrible tortures my decision was to be faithful until the torture started and maybe I would die quickly so no one would not know ho little faith I had. I never even truly thought I would survive Armegeddon just knew life was too scary for me always had little faith , started living double life at age 14 and always prepared to die at beginning of GT. Even if I killed myself. I wasn't suppose to grow up anyhow.
I know what I have written confusing but I think my childhood is still confusing to myself. I am now going to the beach and read and do some snacking too many bad memories. Glad to have all of you here for me.