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  (Not?) Hypnotized

  by TerryWalstrom in

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  what you are about to read i've never told anyone before.. why?

  because it is mysterious.. mostly because it is a bit like the corner of your eye.

  you see movement there but you won't be reciting any eye chart letters.what you read next is sort of like that.i don't like to be vague.

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  TerryWalstrom

  
  
  There is a place in our brain which maintains our sense of BEFORE and AFTER while all of us ever live in is NOW.
  
  This means Before is a fiction to some degree and so is After because of imperfect perception and imperfect memory.
  
  Deja Vu is a hiccup in that time-tracking.
  (Did you ever see the movie MEMENTO?)
  
  Hypnosis could be a brain/mind hack to the authentication safeguard in our head distinguishing REAL from UNreal. This alternate version of events is uncanny because it is a distortion image rather than a direct imprint.
  
  All this is untrained speculation on my part.
  
  
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  And now for something you might be able to hear without repulsion

  by TerryWalstrom in

  1. watchtower
  2. beliefs

  i won't give a long preamble other than to say this.

  listen and see how you respond.

  and now i'm passing it along to get your feedback.https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=28i3lwxw5xs.

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  We are not allowed by nature to think unthinkable thoughts.
  We cannot bear the unbearable without disintegration.
  We will fracture.
  
  Cognitive protection mechanisms kick in--as a natural safeguard.
  
  What we NEED is an ability to moderate our mood and alter our consciousness in times of stress.
  
  The more intelligent and intellectual the person, the more 'high-falutin'
  the mechanism of moderation there is.
  
  Stupid people give stupid reasons. Smart people give smart reasons.
  What is REAL vs. what is "real" is not really the focus of Peterson's discourse (at least, as I see it.)
  
  He has, to use a weird analogy, opened up his skull and has pulled out his brain in order to see how it works.
  This is not possible, of course.
  By analogy and deconstruction, it is modeled as real.
  
  I like Peterson's process. I'm not so much interested in his final analysis belief system.
  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9Y17YaZRRvY
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  What you hide from yourself comes back to haunt you (Cognitive Dissonance)

  by TerryWalstrom in

  1. watchtower
  2. beliefs

  i was paroled in 1969. i had been in prison since 1967. i was a political prisoner compelled by my religion to refuse military service.. (in order to preserve my faith, i could only change my thoughts.i couldn't change what happened.

  i could only change how i remembered what happened, how i reported what happened.

  )____________________the first rule of sanity.

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  TerryWalstrom

  I was paroled in 1969. I had been in prison since 1967.
  I was a political prisoner compelled by my religion to refuse Military Service.

  (In order to preserve my Faith, I could only change my thoughts.
  I couldn't change what happened. I could only change how I remembered what happened, how I reported what happened.)
  ____________________
  THE FIRST RULE OF SANITY

  Each of us carries our world inside our head and it has been built a day at a time, a thought at a time.
  This "world-building" more or less matches the real, objective world outside our head.

  Except...Not perfectly.
  There's a really good reason for that.
  You'd go mad if the two matched exactly.
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  Thinking is NOT always an honest process.
  No. No. No.
  Between the horror and the human being is THE WALL.

  Each of us has a circuit-breaker
  for unbearable thoughts protecting us from severe trauma
  triggered at the unbearable moment.

  What does this mean?

  The first rule of Sanity:
  "The unthinkable must NOT be thought."

  Denial
  If you can't bear a thought--you say, "No! I refuse to believe it".
  This is the circuit breaker shutting down.

  Lies
  A child confronted with a misdeed--rather than facing punishment--will LIE. It isn't sophisticated; it is NATURE; avoiding pain.
  Lying is the act of hiding reality from others while Denial is the act of hiding reality from your Self.
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  Our Mind cannot operate without data.
  Survival often demands we corrupt that data.

  Sanity is the perfect balance between "thinkable" and the
  unthinkable thoughts.
  
  Question:

  What person do you know who does not "moderate their mood" by some kind of pill or consciousness-altering substance either legal or illegal?

  The horror must be avoided at any cost!

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  In prison, at the age of 20, my Faith assured me I could not and would not ever be outside the full protection of my God. This was an unshakeable belief.
  Then, the horror.
  I was assaulted.

  My FAITH was betrayed by reality.

  This was unthinkable.
  My circuit breaker shut me down.
  Denial. Then Lies.

  The lie: it was an "attempted" assault.

  In order to preserve my Faith, I could only change my thoughts.
  I couldn't change what happened. I could only change how I remembered what happened, how I reported what happened.

  Otherwise, there would be consequences unbearable to me and to the "world" I built and lived inside.

  I would lose my Faith, self-respect, my Brothers and Sisters, my Purpose, my self-respect and--perhaps, worst of all:
  "the only True Religion" might not be true.
  So...

  Denial. Lies.
  
  

  With this "COGNITIVE DISSONANCE" I saved the world! (My world)

  With an imbalance of the mind, comes the great cost. Sanity.

  I had suffered a trauma. Lying about the severity of it was like taking an aspirin for a bullet wound.

  I began to unhinge. I split into two people.
  Like many JW's, I began to live a Double Life.
  
  Terry #1 was a devout Jehovah's Witness devoting 100 hours each month to the ministry and serving in the local congregation as a shining example of what a young man should be.
  Terry #2 was an embittered, angry young man filled with rage and desperate to escape my fake world.
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  I was paroled in 1969. I had been in prison since 1967.
  The Me I had become was on a collision course with disaster.

  I lasted 5 years in a slow, crumbling disintegration of a person conflicted by every thought, value, and feeling. I was in a war with my Self.

  Fight or Flight?

  I fled.

  Here is what haunts me.
  Millions of JW's remain behind. What if I had done that? Would I dissolve into a robotic "True Believer" like all those people I still know today?

  I took my wife and 3 children with me. I didn't abandon them.
  I couldn't.
  Many men do just that very thing: A Clean Break.

  My father did that. I suffered a miserable childhood.
  How could I do the same?
  I could not.
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  Millions of Jehovah's Witnesses face Cognitive Dissonant thoughts every day.
  They reconcile Reality with Faith in the Organization.

  The Horror is unthinkable: "I am in a cult."

  Those of us who speak out are branded Apostates who must not be allowed to speak. The JW must never listen.

  What price do they pay?

  Sanity?
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  I think the worst Cognitive Dissonance is at the top of the Organization inside the mind and mindset of the Governing Body.
  Each and every villain since time began believes he is good.
  Where is their Sanity?
  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9Y17YaZRRvY
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  And now for something you might be able to hear without repulsion

  by TerryWalstrom in

  1. watchtower
  2. beliefs

  i won't give a long preamble other than to say this.

  listen and see how you respond.

  and now i'm passing it along to get your feedback.https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=28i3lwxw5xs.

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  TerryWalstrom
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  And now for something you might be able to hear without repulsion

  by TerryWalstrom in

  1. watchtower
  2. beliefs

  i won't give a long preamble other than to say this.

  listen and see how you respond.

  and now i'm passing it along to get your feedback.https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=28i3lwxw5xs.

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  TerryWalstrom

  I won't give a long preamble other than to say this. Listen and see how you respond. I did. And now I'm passing it along to get your feedback.
  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=28i3lWxW5xs
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  The Snake and the Cult

  by TerryWalstrom in

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  2. friends

  this is what happens in cults!all opposition is silenced, forbidden and punished.a cult never makes any true progress.they are rooted, fixed, immobile.watch a snake going from point a to point b.the snake never ever moves in a straight line.a snake curves to the left and curves back to the rightand yet it makes progress from point a to point b.. what is progress in society?moving forward, not backward.

  right?improving your chances within an environment.achieve advantages, advancing all the while.okay?we can agree that progress is good.

  but wait!.

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  TerryWalstrom

  The idea of a HOLY CITY is intensely interesting.
  The 3 main monotheistic religions agree only on that one concept.
  Islam, Judaism, Christianity cry "YES!"
  They agree the Holy City exists and further agree where that city is.
  JERUSALEM.
  
  Ah--but--the crisis comes immediately when these 3 remarkable religious mindsets cram into such tiny real estate.
  What is the CLASH of civilizations but being forced to CONFRONT reality itself?
  
  If there is only ONE GOD--and that one God is feasibly THERE in the agreed upon HOLY CITY--how is it possible for people determined devoutly to worship that one God to CLASH?
  
  Here, I think, human psychology presents a possible insight to answer.
  
  Confronting reality with religion and belief with counter-belief is an extraordinary opportunity to TEST faith against FALSIFIABLE facts.
  
  When Jehovah's Witnesses faced 1914, 1925, and 1975 confronting

  FAILURE with BELIEF, what happened?
  Was there enlightenment?
  Hell no.
  There were simultaneously 2 eventualities.
  
  1. Double-down in cognitive-dissonance
  2. Apostasy (getting the hell away from cult belief)
  
  Disproof can only be accepted with enlightenment or rejected with irrational Faith.
  
  The Holy City concept is a deep, psychological longing for some imagined world government ruled by the One True God.
  Christianity, Islam, and Judaism confront the UNreality of their deep Faith when they confront each other.
  
  1. Double-down and label those other true-believers as Satan.
  2. Secularize and offer political solutions for pragmatic co-existence.
  
  Enemies everywhere!
  Who creates these enemies? Those who label the others, not those

  willing to sit down and craft political solutions.
  
  CLOSED MINDS are destroying civilization.
  Creating labels, decrying bigots, Us vs. Them thinking is poisoning our world.
  
  The way to identify the Bigot?
  It is easy: those who call others "Bigot."
  Those who shut you down, block your access to open dialogue and
  label you with propaganda from a position of moral superiority
  are gatekeepers drowning dissent, demonizing apostasy, and worst of all: DENYING themselves the voice of criticisms crucial to creating
  progress in their society.
  
  The Governing Body of Jehovah's Witnesses actually imagine
  themselves to BE the center of the Holy City.
  The child molestation problem is a symptom of the absence of
  one true God from their authority. And yet? They are in denial while declaring their critics Apostate liars.
  
  The voice of the Critic is their only salvation. It is their wake up call.
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  The Snake and the Cult

  by TerryWalstrom in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  this is what happens in cults!all opposition is silenced, forbidden and punished.a cult never makes any true progress.they are rooted, fixed, immobile.watch a snake going from point a to point b.the snake never ever moves in a straight line.a snake curves to the left and curves back to the rightand yet it makes progress from point a to point b.. what is progress in society?moving forward, not backward.

  right?improving your chances within an environment.achieve advantages, advancing all the while.okay?we can agree that progress is good.

  but wait!.

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  TerryWalstrom

  This is what happens in CULTS!
  All opposition is silenced, forbidden and punished.
  A Cult never makes any true progress.They are rooted, fixed, immobile.
  
  Watch a snake going from point A to point B.
  The snake never ever moves in a straight line.
  A snake curves to the Left and curves back to the Right
  and yet IT MAKES PROGRESS from point A to point B.

  What is progress in Society?
  Moving forward, not backward. Right?
  Improving your chances within an environment.
  Achieve advantages, advancing all the while.
  Okay?
  We can agree that PROGRESS is good. BUT WAIT!

  Now, here is something to think about--really THINK about.

  THIS IS HOW a healthy SOCIETY operates!
  Just like snake moves.
  Society oscillates from Liberal to Conservative, to Liberal to Conservative IN ORDER TO PROGRESS and improve and achieve worthwhile goals.

  Stop and think!
  Nature has always been at war with itself, survival of the fittest--and yet--life somehow achieves balance in the contest of opposition and adaptations.
  
  Neither Liberal NOR Conservative is 100% correct all the time
  and the function of democratic government is to force these two sides into DIALOGUE and COOPERATION in order to make PROGRESS.

  Why?

  Neither side knows for certain who is on the best track at any one moment in history.
  Both sides NEED EACH OTHER to work that out.
  Why? Because each extreme believes they are always right.

  Whatever you believe--you automatically disbelieve those who disagree with your belief.
  If you silence those who disagree with you--you are DOOMED as far as progress is concerned.

  This is what happens in CULTS!
  All opposition is silenced, forbidden and punished.

  Sanity and Progress need healthy debate.
  WE NEED our ideological "enemies" for a very good reason.

  SOMETIMES our "enemy" is the one who is right for the moment.

  When we ridicule, excoriate and condemn those who disagree with us (often for good reasons) we destroy PROGRESS by not listening, debating, and cooperating.

  "Knowing" you are right and "they" are wrong--is suicidal for society.
  Listen to your enemy for that one, tiny, TRUE thing they are saying. We need that one true thing if we are all to survive.

  The path of the snake LOOKS CHAOTIC but it is not.
  When you look at our Democracy it too looks chaotic but
  it is the tug of war between the Left side and the Right side
  carrying us forward toward Progress.

  Freeing slaves, giving women the right to vote was progress.
  Prohibition and the Iraq War were huge errors made by people who THOUGHT THEY WERE DOING THE RIGHT THING.
  In the moment--somebody always thinks they are right.
  Only by carefully listening to your "enemy" can you begin to achieve balance.
  
  Democracy cannot become 2 wolves and a sheep voting on
  "What's for supper?"
  The sheep always loses.
  

  ALLOW dissent.
  Never silence those whose speech you hate.
  Listen.
  Don't be so damned certain you're right.
  It is the only path to PROGRESS: working with your opposition.
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  My 71st Birthday Confessional

  by TerryWalstrom in

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  i was born january 15, 1947in mt.

  carmel hospital, detroit, michigan.. within six months of my birth, my mother would bundle her baby boy into a blanket and board an american airlines propeller-driven plane--in effect, leaving my father behind--to return to her hometown, ft. worth, texas.. my dad had an excellent job working for cadillac as an inspector.

  it was a union job.

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  Driveby, thanks for sharing that.
  The number of "genuinely" creative people in the world is, I think, distorted by a cheapening of standards in popular opinion.
  The less informed each generation becomes (by diluting exposure to classics) the less able society becomes to judge worthiness.
  

  American Idol proved at least one thing in those endless auditions at the beginning of each season. Lots of people fool themselves and won't listen when confronted with their flaws.
  
  Our lives can be stifled if we are Jehovah's Witnesses through constant exposure to unauthentic references. We become a storehouse of fictional observation and tastes.
  
  I struggled with that for the first twenty years I was OUT of the Org.
  I sought to redefine almost every concept and vocabulary word I possessed to purge the tainted brain repository.
  
  I'm happy to hear you have achieved balance and joy in life.
  An attitude of gratitude is hard to beat.
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  (Not?) Hypnotized

  by TerryWalstrom in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  what you are about to read i've never told anyone before.. why?

  because it is mysterious.. mostly because it is a bit like the corner of your eye.

  you see movement there but you won't be reciting any eye chart letters.what you read next is sort of like that.i don't like to be vague.

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  TerryWalstrom

  Our senses are a window to our world. If the "glass is dirty" our view is distorted.
  We've all heard something (or thought we heard) which turned out not to be accurate. We thought we saw, but it wasn't what we say we saw.
  
  If our memory is an unreliable narrator our entire life is a series of ruined records. This I fear most as my oldest and dearest friends die off.
  Comparing memories of events shared always served to sharpen verification.
  So many times, people have asked me, "How in the world did you remember that?" The things I think I remember, once I remind the others involved, becomes veridical.
  
  Alzheimer patients lose the life they lived--as far as corroborating incidents brought to mind--and the tragedy is experienced by their loved ones. However, most of my recollections don't amount to a handkerchief full of snot. Meaning: it doesn't matter to anybody else but me.
  
  My writing these last few years has consisted of incremental recollections of events meaningful only to me. "Some" others find them interesting (they say) and I'm only too eager to share if it means I can exercise my mania for writing these details.
  
  When Marcel Proust wrote REMEMBRANCE OF THINGS PAST he set the literary world on fire. When I write, my equally mundane observations earn more shrugs than hugs.
  
  I've wondered for years why in the world I wrote that incredibly wonky and weird book in such a manic flurry. That dream the other night is all I can say I've come up with that satisfies (barely) that curiosity.
  
  I'll finish by saying how convinced I was that I saw a different ending to a NIGHT GALLERY episode "SILENT SNOW SECRET SNOW" than everyone else saw. I tried every way I could to prove an alternate ending was shown on TV. I was (and remain) shocked no such ending ever happened although it is vivid in memory.
  
  This makes me question my own sanity. Of course, it's unimportant.
  To everybody but me it is unimportant, I should say :)
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  (Not?) Hypnotized

  by TerryWalstrom in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  what you are about to read i've never told anyone before.. why?

  because it is mysterious.. mostly because it is a bit like the corner of your eye.

  you see movement there but you won't be reciting any eye chart letters.what you read next is sort of like that.i don't like to be vague.

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  TerryWalstrom

  I tend to have an "opinion" on everything.
  Not in this instance. Haven't got a clue.
  
  I have spent the morning watching informative (?) videos about what hypnotism IS and ISN'T and I'm still in the dark.
  
  As JW's you know we were told it is "binding others with a spell" and I completely reject superstitious drivel like that.
  
  Supposedly, the more intelligent a person is the more susceptible to the hypnotic suggestion they become. I don't exactly see any inherent truth in that other than making you ashamed to NOT be hypnotized.
  
  The more I think about it, the more convinced I am hypnosis is "something". Ha! Where does that get me?
  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EnojE1R4jKw