1914 and blood are two subjects I am passionate about. She knows this because I had mentioned to her back in October that both issues are doctrines that the organization has changed their minds about many many times. I did not go into full detail about what I've discovered on my own. Still I think she believes she can make me realize that the organization is the only channel to god.
I want to express to her that I don't believe that it is. I want her to understand that I will never dedicate myself to something that isn't what they say they are. She is an older witness, over 30 yrs. Is not a born in, her husband isn't a witness and she shuns her son because I'm pretty sure he's confronted her with the same info I may tell her. She told me one time that she has no hope for him. I just think its terribly sad but I understand this is how they treat their own flesh and blood thanks to the organization.
She is somebody I've known for quite some time, on and off for about 6 yrs. I was friends with her daughter (playdates with the kids, parties, get togethers) whom doesn't speak with me. Lets just say we have a history. I just feel cutting ties makes more sense to me now. Everybody else wants nothing to do with me since I've stopped studying so what's the point of trying to rationalize with any of them?! They are all stuck in this religion. I am not.