Okay, I admit it. I'm retarded when it comes to "unlocking my e-mail", Picosito. How?
Now to answer (in backward order) you other question(s). I am DF'd for 1 1/2 years (second time in 12 years) for same thing--guess I'm a horny wench. Either that or I keep hooking up with alcoholics who abuse me emotionally and psychologically (waah, waah) so, I go lookin' for love in other places.
I do (call me 'crazy') still attend meetings. Guess I'm still trying to prove to myself if my whole past was a waste or not, being raised in the truth. I liken opening my eyes to the 'truth', to finding out I was adopted! I believed all of my life one way and only just discovered (by finding this website and actually thinking about what was said with my own mind) that it was all (or mostly)a lie!
I'm weary and don't want to tell my whole story (way too much to type) but I got shafted in the judicial committee with their decision to DF me (I actually told THEM [confessed] that I had slept with a guy at work while going through my second divorce from my non-believing alcoholic husband.) They knew my situation, they had stopped by to talk to him several times during our 10 year marriage. They knew I was in trouble trying to deal with a non-believer and raise my kids in the 'truth', but they offered little help.
I dutifully drug my two kids (a third one was old enough to decide for himself not to go) to meetings (the one's I could make) for over a year. Then I asked to be re-instated. Mind you, I DID take advantage of the guy from work (for sex) a few times (yum!)--after all I WAS disfellowshipped. They (elders on committee) said I couldn't be reinstated because (yes, they actually said this...) I hadn't attended enough meetings!
When I walked out of that meeting I was bitter. I knew they had flipped a switch in me. My attitude had changed! I was no longer the humble little slutty sister they kept taking advantage of. I didn't go back to meetings for about 6 months.
I've recently began going back to meeting (Sunday only), but I'm not buying into the party line. I'm still trying to make up my mind what I want. I figure it can't hurt to go on Sundays, and this time LISTEN to what's being drolled out to the masses. I'm skeptical about everything at meetings now but have a unique advantage--They can't talk to me to sway my opinion. No fake sweetness to cloud the issues. It helps. They speak to my children (girl 10 yrs, boy 15 yrs) but I'm invisible. They're fanatical about NOT speaking to me. How 'loving' huh?
I also take a different Bible translation with me. Whenever they quote scriptures or read scriptures, I have the kids look them up in the NWT and I have another (not Borg approved) translation that I read from and make my notes. Wonder what the R&F think of that? I can't be the person I used to be--THEY changed that.
Now, I'm a young looking (blond hair, green eyes, 135 lbs, 5' 3") 41 year old (get mistaken for 30+ frequently--good genes, no wrinkles), with three children I love buy recognize that they will not always be there (they grow up and move away). I'm willing to put forth the effort it takes to have a long, lasting, healthy relationship with someone who has similar interests as I. Thought this board would be a good place to start. In fact, I think there should be a forum for matchmaking here! Hey, Simon...How about it?
Gosh, I said I didn't want to tell my whole story but I ended up telling a lot of it. That's enough for now.
Still looking!
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