WELCOME, Elon! Looking forward to your posts. I was just talking about that to a friend yesterday, about how bad I felt for the people that I encouraged to become witnesses. My nonjw sister said a wonderful thing to me when I first told her I had left off being a jw and how sorry I was for the 30 years that I shunned her. She said, "You thought you were doing the right thing."
Don't be too hard on yourself. We were brainwashed.