I think I can really understand where you're coming from. I loved my second husband, but we just couldn't live with each other. After our divorce, we remained good friends. One day he told me that I was going to lose him. He had met a sister. He told me that she laughed at his jokes like I did. He then asked me to marry him again (it would have been the third go-round) and, as much as I cared for him, I said no. Within two weeks they were off to Vegas to get married. He never spoke to me again, except to pick up some things he had left at my place. His new wife made me take this stuff over to a neighbor's house, because he wasn't allowed to be around me.
The thing is that we never had spiritual grounds for divorce. I never cheated on him and he was the one who divorced me. This happened when we were both df'd, but we were both reinstated shortly after the divorce at different halls. The sister he married is a pioneer and a sweet woman from all accounts. Within a year after they married, he was making signigicant progress in their congregation. I couldn't help but think of the unfairness of it all. It was messed up. He was about to become a ministerial servant even though he was never free to marry someone else. I wanted to tell on him. What right did he have to do this?
But something happened to him, I don't know what. Shortly after I heard how great they were doing, I found out that he had written a letter of disassociation to his congregation and was treating his wife and child badly.
I believe in Karma. What goes around, comes around.
It is such a rush to want to get back at someone. But, I've learned that it's truly better to back off and let things take their course. It's not that I wish evil on people. I just know that in the long run things will be made right.
Hang in there, k?