"why spend any time thinking about it" I think I remember back in my jdub days an elder telling me that in order for me to have a long and faithful existance as a jdub thats exactly what I had to do. "faith is the expectation of things...blah blah blah cant member the rest" but point is that weren't WE ALL trained to just believe ultimately and NOT to question? So the idea behind putting active thought into doubting those beliefs and questioning them is just what we got being "free". I would rather spend the rest of my dayz thinking about it just in the fact that it reminds me that I have the freedom to do that. Yes, thinking about THOSE days are hard sometimes...(most of the time) but I think the end result, the THINKING individual I have become is capable of handling those bad days when the "chains of the past" become heavy...I am forever bound by SOME degree of that conditioning but HOW i think about it and the uses to which I put that conditioning are what is important...AAARRGGGHHHH this thought got too deep....but I have the FREEDOM to think about it. Not sure if this made much sense...
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