Congrats!
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just a little breaking news:.
after several years of a great friendship with diane (previously posted as xena) things have started to really come together recently and i've succumbed to making an honest woman of her (or at least as honest as it's possible to make her.
last night (xmas day) i popped the question and she agreed to marry me (i wonder if she knows what she's let herself in for!!!)..
Congrats!
-Z-
the kids don't know what he looks like or what he's like at all.
other men step in and run the family and you get treated like a stepchild or abused.
you want your real dad to come and get you; he's supposed to be so good; but he never comes.
and like the child that forever wants to be able to show their love to a dead beat dad..u will wait as well..most likely forever. As a parent myself I know the value in setting reasonable goals for my child to meet..and rewards that are of both kind..immediate AND long term. I would hardly associate the "whiny child" with the group of people that have been ignored by their "heavenly father"
but hey..everyone's entitled to their own opinion....IMHO my vote goes in the way of callin him the biggest dead beat dad ever...
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in the vain hope that maybe...just maybe things would be better...or at least somewhat improved...i was wrong.
i was told about the al gore dvd that talks about how bad the world is and when i tried to say i didnt want to think about how bad the world is and rather think of ways to improve it they showed me a book about "how to deal with emotions" or something like that...i kind of tuned out right about then.
i talked about my job and my dad said, "see!
thanx...the past to my story is a long one...but id imagine it isnt that much different than any others' here...jw family...df'd son. The rest is sort of fill in the blanks...
in the vain hope that maybe...just maybe things would be better...or at least somewhat improved...i was wrong.
i was told about the al gore dvd that talks about how bad the world is and when i tried to say i didnt want to think about how bad the world is and rather think of ways to improve it they showed me a book about "how to deal with emotions" or something like that...i kind of tuned out right about then.
i talked about my job and my dad said, "see!
in the vain hope that maybe...just MAYBE things would be better...or at least somewhat improved...I was wrong. I was told about the al gore dvd that talks about how bad the world is and when I tried to say I didnt want to think about how bad the world is and rather think of ways to improve it they showed me a book about "how to deal with emotions" or something like that...I kind of tuned out right about then.
I talked about my job and my dad said, "see! It is a good thing we taught you sign language!" nothing good...nothing like "good job son" or anything like that...it was all about HIM takng credit for what I have done. They may have given me the language but the drive and the sheer work that I have put into making a good, reputable career has NOTHING to do with them. I put it all together with my own blood, sweat and curse words. I told him and my mom that exact thing and its amazing...when they think I am wrong they have plenty to "correct" me on but when I am right they get very, VERY quiet. No validation, no encouragement...nothing.
I guess my sister moved back in the house too...something that makes me wonder if something ir wrong that nobody is telling me. She had a very promising career back east and I find it VERY hard to believe that she just picked up and moved back in with my parents. She doesnt even validate that they are my parents as well...she says stuff like "my dad" or "my mom" like I just sprouted out of the ground without any of those parental figures in my life. I dunno....i guess I shud really just stop trying...even the once a year or so calls...I feel like the guy without a past sometimes...whatevah...
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lately i've noticed more and more jw groups on myspace seem to be disappearing and losing members.
at first i egotistically thought might have something to do with my efforts (i sometimes suffer from delusions of grandeur).
however, a couple posts came to my attention on two of the private jw groups.... .
(shaking head)
Good Grief!!!! I knew the society was crazy but a vendetta against MySpace? Lol...I agree that there are a ton of predators out in modern society today but to blame such predatory instincts on something like an internet site? Such is human nature...oh well. I have been rather big on MySpace as of the last year and have re-connected with friends that I never thought I would be able to talk to again and it has expanded my world to include old friends spanning over the last 30 years. It is all in the controls that one sets in MySpace...if you go LOOKING for sexual deviance etc then duhhh of course yer gonna find it. Doesnt matter where you look...MySpace, Yahoo, anything really...as I recall wasnt there a pedo that was in Bethel even? Whatever...this just irked me...
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how do you perceive the jws that had brought you into the wts, do you like them, resent them, are they still dubs or did they get out before you?
it would be nice if there are instances where those that brought people in later helped them leave.
i don't particularly like the dubs that got me in because i later realised they were doing everything to impress their superiors and get promoted, something they achieved as they got good bethel positions abroad.
hmmm the dubs that brought me by way of my parents into the religious grip of steel I have mixed feelings for..I havent been around for well over 20 years from that specific congregation and I imagine that they are probably still jw's...i know that they bridged a huge language barrier when they "brought my folks into the fold" hours of bible study done on paper writing back and forth..prayers done on paper and written back and forth...and the 80's werent the best of times for the deaf community...they at the time opened a door with total communication where no other religious communities were...
on the OTHER hand...just because the bait a fisherman uses is tasty doesnt make the idea of biting the hook right. The thing which was created now enables scores of jws to infiltrate the deaf community with ease..and all they have to do is sign...the masses seem to be swallowing it up whole. The lengths the interpreting/deaf/jw community have gone to to ensure that their message of "truth" blow even me away....the "bait" has hooked more fish than I have seen in a long time...sigh..
so what do I think of those who brought me in to all of this...? Geez....it hurts to think about it..I try not to.
-Z-
who here is in ca?
i'm in southern ca, and that's all i'm willing to reveal for now.
spend most of my week at a hotel in burbank....then bounce back to central cali for a few days of the week. Not originally from these parts tho...
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if those people are of some positive energy, they will see the light.
that is their free will choice.
as part of our ministry to those that oppose the truth, we point out that a humble heart is the only thing that saves anyone.
ROTFLMAO...wow religion really IS a snare and a racket! lol that pile of defecation smelled so bad i cud smell it here emanating from the screen.....wow...ahhh comic relief I needed that...that'll get me thru the day..:)
-Z-
lol...preachin to the proverbial "choir" on that one but preach away! Get no arguments from me or anyone else here id imagine...;)
-Z-
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ies that have happened to individuals on this board.
(what inspired me to write this subject was a bone chilling account .
yes...i was down this road a couple o times...long ago. Ironically enough it would be those worldly people that ultimately came to my resuce when it was the witnesses who sent me down the path of insanity..lol. Talk about poetic irony...
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