when you post here, do you feel that you that you can make a positive difference in someone's life?
or is this place just a spot to hang with your friends?
I think so. It certainly has opened many doors for myself in my healing process. I can see my growth has changed sense being on this board. Hopefully will make a difference to others who are on their journey. And to know each one of us are not alone.
OCW
there are five houses in five different colours.
in each house lives a person with a different nationality.
the five owners drink a certain type of beverage, smoke a certain brand of cigar, and keep a certain pet.
I have no clue???
Welcome no one
OCW
i read your reply to 'not fitting' and i'm sorry to hear that only one person welcomed you to the board.
you have to forgive some of us because the board moves quickly and trying to read as many posts as possible and make replies is a chore within itself.
anyways, welcome and i think i speak for others.
Welcome No One
Sorry you slipped through the cracks. Its hard sometimes to keep with the treads.
Whats interesting is the response to threads are few. But notice in the upper right hand cornor shows how viewed. So you being heard but not always acknowledge.
I glad you are hear. Hope to hear more about yourself.
OCW
i'm sitting at work today, listening to all the different "cliques" around me, typing here on these boards a bit (don't tell), and it occurred to me again that i just don't fit.. .
it seems like i don't "fit" anywhere.
i'm always on the outskirts of alot of "groups", always on the fringe, but never inside.
I am glad you brought this up. Helps me to put this in perspective. And thank you PG for the gift.
I too, struggled. I am 59 years old. Even on a couple of ex's boards I felt this square peg trying to fit in round hole. I realized being on the fringes of these clinques that I would'nt get my needs met and it would'nt be place for me to be. And I would loose part of myself. I worked too hard to get to this point in life to do a trade off in order to belong.
I work with 180 people in the ER. I have one friend who I can call a true friend and visa versa. The clinques are like the HS cheerleaders they have'nt actually moved on in life. Interesting I for the most part don't know all the goings on. Nor do I care. People don't share with me. Cause I would nip in the bud.
I've been on this board 6 months or more. I am beginning to feel okay and making friends. So there are jewels here.
I would love to get to know you more. Thank you again for the gift.
All the Best, Old Crow Woman
birthdays
i would like to hear from others and feelings with experiences with birthdays.
and what ways you choose to celebrate or not since being out of the org.
Want to say thank you for the wishes. I appreciate hearing how others treat themselves regarding birthdays.
I don't think I ever had so many wishes in my life. It was a honor.
OCW ((((Hugs to All))))
it was a emotionally packed week-end.
one never know's whats around the cornor?
i am grateful to be in a place to not create crisises for myself.
It was a emotionally packed week-end. One never know's whats around the cornor? I am grateful to be in a place to not create crisises for myself. And being aware of my feelings.
Early in the week-end by the lake shore I saw a snake. To remind me that I am needing to shed old skin relating to relationships, jw stuff and my spirituality. And seeing deer to be gentle with myself throughout this process. The best birthday gift was a bald eagle sitting in a tree next to the cabin. And eagle is about seeing the overview of my relationships and life. There were many dragonflies flying around in the circle at the "Honoring the Earth Pow Wow" my needing some fresh air in regard to my relationships. Need to gain a new perspective or make a change.
I was able to enjoy my birthday even tho there was unhealthy group dynamics. Did not allow it to rain on my parade. My wishes were a nuturing week-end. For the most part was'nt met. I was able to receive gifts from those who were around me. Not allowing the negative energy take over my well being.
These women are my drumming group and we have been involved for 8 yrs.It's becoming more and more dysfunctional. Not meeting my needs. And I've bargin with myself for a while now. The writing is on the wall my needing to take care of myself to move on. And the pain is so great. I value my spiritualty. The wise voice within says my spiritualty will stay intact regardless of being connected to a group. And there were many gifts given over the years.
So the 59th birthday is packed this year. For me to honor change.
OldCrowWoman
just got a call from lisa,
lisa suggested that if anyone would like to express love to atty it would be appreciated to send a contribution toward atty's last expenses.
lisa will be at atty's apartment for another 3 weeks, more or less, to clean things up.
I am sorry to hear of Pat Garza's death. My condolences goe's out to her daughter, family and friends.
To acknowledge that its been a long haul for Pat. I had the privilege of meeting her at the SilentLambs March in Brooklyn, New York. In September 2002. I was deeply touched by her story. And what strength and courage to be able to stand up. And to break the silence. like my 6 year old daughter said 20 yrs ago. "That secrets eat the heart away~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~".
I believe Pat was abused. She dropped a huge boulder(her story) in the middle of the lake and the ripples of it are still being felt today.
May she rest in peace with the ancestors.
OldCrow Woman
thirteen years ago my nieces were murdered.
today is a hard day for me, remembering the phone call the shock and pain.
lives stolen in a moment.
(((((((((Cassi))))))
Interesting I lit two green candles (7:00 am) before coming to the board to honor the losses I am experiencing today. I saw your thread and my heart aches for you and your family. I am sorry for the losses.
I will continue to burn the candles for the day. The color green is for healing .
Grief is dealt in so manys ways. There is no right or wrong to work with grief. Its ok to honor those losses you are experiencing. To acknowledge them in your way. Its okay to honor and share your grief here.
oldcrowwoman
birthdays
i would like to hear from others and feelings with experiences with birthdays.
and what ways you choose to celebrate or not since being out of the org.
Birthdays
I would like to hear from others and feelings with experiences with birthdays. And what ways you choose to celebrate or not since being out of the org.
And its interesting it took me time to start a thread re-birthdays. that old voice says not to bring attention to self. Well I decided I am not going to rain on my parade!!!!
OCW
are feminists unattractive?
i mean physically.
most of the feminists i've met were either ugly, dykey or both.
How about a picture of yourself???
