Posts by wildfire

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I was a JW child

by CBeMe in

my mother started studing with the jw's when i was 2 years old.

she became more involved with the organization over the next few years.

i was very young so i don't remember much about my early years in the jw's.

(((((((((((((((CBEMEE)))))))))))))))))) oh my dear your story is so sad,,, but you have come to the right place iam a newbie here too,,,,, only iam the depressed mother not the child..... and 4 of my 5 children are not in the org because of the rantings and lunacy of their annointed father and step---father... i am happy about that but my baby who is 16 is deeply entrenched with it,,, but i am not very strict like other JW parents so iknow she gets away with more ,,,, she was in band in school,,,, reads other literature besides WT ism.... and so she has the best of both worlds.... I do believe in time she will see the Org for what it truely is again welcome to the board and dont be a stranger

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The two things they did to me.

by joelbear in

i am an injured man because they did things to my mind and to my soul.

i can't make it through the day without some kind of medication to keep me going.

its getting worse with age not better.. first they warped my life plan.

wildfire

JOELBEAR IAM SO GLAD TO HEAR FROM YOU WE CANT BE SILENT ANYMORE,,,, JUST LIKE THE SILENTLAMB MARCH...... I TOO HAVE BEEN VICTUMIZED..... SHUNNED,,,,, MARKED,,,,,,,SUFFERED DEEP DEPRESSION FOR YEARS... (BUT THANK GOD I FOUND A GREAT THERAPIST WHO IS HELPING ME DEAL WITH ALL THESE HORRIBLE ISSUES I HAVE GONE , THRU...... we need to keep talking,,,,, keep reminding ourselves it is not our fault for all of this,,,,, THEY WILL PAY FOR WHAT THEY HAVE DONE TO SO MANY INNOCENT LITTLE SHEEP.... JESUS WOULD NEVER TREAT HIS SHEEP IN THIS WAY... WE KNOW THAT but believe me i hav e been there deep depression,,,, suicidal tendancies,,, hospitalization....... married to one of the supposed holier than thou annointed ones..... that is a nightmare all in itself..... but i am here i am talking ,,,,,,,,,,,i will not be silenced anymore,,,, it is wrong what they are doing.... so pleas e get professional help ,,,,,,,,, it will help and please take care

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was this place scary the first time?

by jurs in

here and there a newbie will post and its obvious that they think that this site is for jw's and not ex's.

did any of you ever come across an apostate site on accident?

what about the first time you came here?

wildfire

YES I WAS VERY AFRAID AT FIRST BUT SINCE THEN I HAVE DIVED RIGHT IN..... AND I FEEL MORE AT HOME HERE THAN AT ANY OTHER PLACE ,,, MY EXPERIENCE AS A NEWBIE ON OCT 13,,,, UNDER IAM A NEWBIE NEED HELP IS WHERE MY STORY IS POSTED ,,,, you have all been more than kind and understanding and showing me true love,,, ( you are my true bro and sis) thank you so much for listening tomy rantings and getting out my frustrations being married to someone who claimed to be of the annointe d for 10 yrs,,,,(been divorced from him for over 10yrs now)) that has its own dynamics or rages of dynamite which ever you prefer..... ican relate to sooooo many on this board....again i feel i am home after a long battle and i will continue on my quest

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Ever feel like your loosing it???

by mamashel in

jw
friends

that what i feel like right now.

for those of you who read my posts, please dont thing that i am a cronic complainer or whiner.

the last year has just been so hard for me, that i really feel like i am loosing it.. my 17 yr old daughter as alot of you know, is pregnant with her 2nd child and she moved out due to us arguing all the time because she did not want to abide by the rules.

wildfire

my dear friend,,,,, i am new here and i too have a feeling similar to yours,,,you can go to personal experiences under myname and see just apart of what i have and am going thru ,,, iam not completely out,,, and i have a 16 yr old who is on fire with the troof so you can about imagine what i am going thru ,,, but not quite as bazarr as your daughter,,,, believe me there are days i just want to throw in the towel,,, not knowing what to believe or whom.... i am the one who was married for 10 yrs to a man who said he was of the annointed,,,, and boy did he take us for an emotional rollercoaster ride until he was caught ... and df and now i dont know where the hell he is ,,,,(which by the way is a goood thing) but his poor son is sitting in prison on trumped up charges of revocation of probation and also suffers from paranoid schizophrenia it is truel y heartbreaking to say the leas t so hear me dearone i know alll about drama and the feelof losing it,,,,,,,,, but just keep talking to all of us ,,,,,we HAVE OR ARE GOING THRU SIMILAR CRAZINESS,,,,, SO EMAIL ME IF YOU WOULD LIKE TO ....ITS OPEN.... I WILL BE THE SHOULDER YOU NEED TO CRY ON OR JUST SOMEONE TO CHAT WITH... STAY STRONG YOU ARE PRECIOUS IN ALL OUR EYES......

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I AM A NEWBIE, NEED HELP

by wildfire in

i have been lurking around here for some time,,, i personally know laurie fitzwater and what she has gone through we lived in bradenton.

florida in the late 80's .... she is the one telling me to come here for help ,,, a hug ,,, i have a nightmare of a story which involves married to a professed annointed one who made me and my childrens life pure hell on earth....i guess he needed to be replaced as he was df twice and was never a ms or elder..... go figure i suffer from severe depression and post-traumatic stress and have tried to end it all numerous times... but the turning point for me was this demon--inspired internet and all the truth it contains i also read george orwells.. 1984 --big brother is watching ,,,, doublespeak;;;; its us versus them just to name a few of my eye---opening events i have 5 children,,, and only one my baby (16) in the borg....... i really cant go on ,,, i have emailed lady lee and she helped me alot .... but i have to be careful...... there are spies everywhere....i still attend meetings.

to some extent... missed the assembly this weekend tho.. so please be gentle and reasure me.... i am baby--stepping,,, i am doing the work.............

wildfire

HI ALL ,,,, I AM SO HAPPY TO GE T ALL THE GREETINGS FROM ALL MY TRUE FRIENDS...... the ones at the hall are ignoring me as i missed my first assembly this past weekend sure felt strange but i did it...... it is getting alittle easier as time goes by ,,,,, but the indoctrination has taken years so i knowit wont go away overnight.....again thanks for all your love an d concern

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LOCAL NEEDS: Let's Auxiliary Pioneer

by minimus in

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friends

we were helped to appreciate the wonderful blessings from auxiliary pioneering.we may not be able to get to visit the householders, especially when it's pouring rain or snowing, but at least we can warm up in the car and enjoy upbuilding association in the car with the heater on.........that's it in a nutshell.

what do you think??

?

wildfire

hell people dig this (can you tell i amfrom the 60s era hahah) we had a brother who hadnt been to meetings in over a year.... well he started to come back and all of a sudden he was announced from the platform that he was auxiallary pioneering... which everyone applauded but looked righteously puzzled....... i feel sorry for the bloke he suffers from schizoprenia so i think they were just trying to encourage him....... i have no idea if he made his quota.... but just goes to show its the numbers that count in this racket (religion is a snare and a racket ha ,,, the judge was right!!!!!!!)

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Are JW's Satans children?

by sleepy in

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friends

are jw's satans children?.

i was just wondering how ex-jw born agains and members of other religions view jw's and their time as one.do they believe , like jw's do of other religions, that satan is behind the movment?.

do you feel that in your time as a witness you were under satans control?.

wildfire

SHAKITA;;;;;;;I WOULD LIKE TO LET YOU KNOW THAT I WAS PERSONALLY ATTACKED BY WHAT I BELIEVED WERE DEMONS OR DEMONIC FORCES,,,, IT WAS SO STRANGE LIKE IN MY EARLY JW YEARS,,,, MY EXHUSBAND HAD A RELATIVE STAY WITH US ,, WHO WAS TELLING US ABOUT ALL THE CRAZY STUFF GOING ON IN HIS HOUSE ,, SO WHAT DOES HE DO COME STAY AT OUR HOUSE DUMB JERK,,, OH WELL GETTING BACK TO THE STORY,,, I WAS LAYING ON THE COUCH OF MY HOME AND HAD MY HANDS BACK AND SOMETHING GRABBED ME AND WOULD NOT LET ME GO,,,,, SO IN TRUE JW FASHION I YELLED OR TRIED TO YELL JEHOVAH ..... AND I WAS RELEASED ,, SCARED THE HELL OUT OF ME FOR SURE..... AND BACK THEN THEY SAID DEMONS WORK THRU THINGS WELL ,,,, THIS RELATIVE LEFT A DEMONIZED RING AT OUR HOUSE ONCE WE FOUND IT AND GOT RID OF IT THE DEMONS LEFT HAH A I GUESS THEY LIKED THAT RING..... ( PS. IT DIDNT HAVE A SMURF ON IT THO ))))))

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Were/are you Anointed?

by onacruse in

i was very sure that i was, for several years (in the 80's).

never ate/drank the emblems.

don't feel that way now at all.. i knew a few others my age that had a similar experience.. fantasy?.

wildfire

ONACRUSE (CRAIG) AND ROBDAR,,,,,, THANKS FOR YOUR CONCERN,,, i am truely a survivor.... if only i could get upon stage of an assemblyand tell THE REAL TRUTH..... OF WHAT I WENT THRU AND AM STILL GOING THRU.....AND SMILE AND SAY HEY FELLAS CAN YOU TOP THIS ONE WITH ALL YOUR RANTINGS AND RAVINGS ABOUT THE END,,, HOW TRUELY BLESSED WE ARE TO BE JWS.... YA ALL MY KIDS ARE TOTALLY SCREWED UP FROM THE ANTICS OF THIS MADMAN....... ONLY HIS BABY MY BABY (16) IS IN THE TROOF........ JUST THE OTHER DAY THEY HAD A PART ABOUT SINGLE--PARENT FAMILIES ,,,, DID THEY USE ME NO WAY IN HELL...... NO THEY USED 2 RICH SISTERS WHO HAD UNBELIEVEING MATES TO TAKE CARE OF THEM..... AS AN EXAMPLE AND I REALLY THINK THEY WOULD HAVE BEEN AFRAID OF WHAT I WOULD HAVE SAID............LIKE THEY ALL SAY THE TRUTH HURTS OR MAYBE LIKE IN A FEW GOOD MEN,,,,,,,,,,,,YOU CAN'T HANDLE THE TRUTH YOU FREAKIN ASSHOLES mY thought for the day there i feel much better now hahahaha

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Were/are you Anointed?

by onacruse in

i was very sure that i was, for several years (in the 80's).

never ate/drank the emblems.

don't feel that way now at all.. i knew a few others my age that had a similar experience.. fantasy?.

wildfire

no onacruse,,,, being annointed and being married just didn't fit into the equation.... and then to have 3 kids and the oldest one is now in prison on a trumped up charge and he suffers from schizophrenia.... so it is truely heartbreakinto say the least ,,, myex also was native american.... and when he was in goodstanding.. everything connected with the Indian way was demonized.... but since he was kicked out,,,, now i think he is a cherished Medicine Man ,, i think he even did the sacred ritual of hanging by your chest by hooks like in the movie with Richard harris,,, does anyone remember that movie... the PLains Indians would pierce there body and hang there ,,,, he is from the Sdak tribe Sioux.... its all tooo bizarreee no wonder i am a frickin basket case

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Were/are you Anointed?

by onacruse in

i was very sure that i was, for several years (in the 80's).

never ate/drank the emblems.

don't feel that way now at all.. i knew a few others my age that had a similar experience.. fantasy?.

wildfire

NEWSSS FLASH GUYS I WAS MARRIED TO ONE OF THE HOLIER THAN HOLY ,,,,,AND HE WAS VERY YOUNG WHEN HE WAS "ANNOINTED" like early 20s,,, I married him in 1979 and he was 25 ,,, but he used to tell me some stories about his early drug use days like you stated onacruse,,,,, pcp,,, is that angel dust and of course LSD AND wierd demon stories,,,, he even wrote to the society on how he should be used hahah that is a laugh never ranked at anything ms, elder, pioneer,,,, just a gifted guitarist and BULLSHITTER IF YOU ASK ME,,,, HAD EVERYONE GOING FOR YEARS UNTIL WE MOVED TO FLORIDA AND THEN HIS COVER WAS BLOWN...... HE IS OUT OF THE BORG AND dont know if he is dead or alive ....... got out of paying child support for his 3 children tho,,,, he was good at that ,,,, i have so many other stories.... emailme if you want to know more