When I was in and an elder 10-15 years ago, the preassure on me as an elder coused severe high blodpressure symphtoms. All speaches you was expected to hold, all commities, talk at circuit meeting, eldershools, this together with a full time job and being the father of 6 children, was simply to much.
The result was 5 hearth attacks, 3 emergency ambulance transport to a specialist in cardiology. The cardiologist understood my situation, and said you need not only hart surgery, but cognitive behavoiur therapy CBT. I went to the phsycologist for more than 40 hours. Coming out from this therapy I had learned that I must say NO THANK to every engagement that did not interested me. So instead just fading away from the cong. I resigned and openly said that I will never ever come to a meeting again nor will I report any field service. The other elders in the Circuit didnot dfsh mee. I think the scandal had been to big. Maybee they hope that I some day will be back again.
Is there anyone that have the axperience as me?
Bugbear