Hey, are you my lost twin-brother or something?
I'd say your experience as a child echoes mine pretty closely. There were other kids in my congregation my age and around my age, but for some reason I was never "good enough" to be invited to anything or play with any of them. It only got worse as I entered my teenage years and they became even BIGGER assholes then they already were.
The one thing I distinctly remember from growing up, and this was a comment echoed by my parents frequently, was the perception that no matter what, you were never good enough for anything. You weren't good enough, didn't do enough, weren't spiritual enough, etc, etc, etc. The boredom was sheer hell. I did the same thing as you, flipped to the back to see how many pages were left in the WT study. Suits didn't bother me, except during the DC's at in Veteran's Stadium in Philadelphia during the summer. That was pure torture that my parents only endured a few times and then never again. It was hell.
The Jehovah's Witness religion is a "thou shalt not" religion built up around control and the suppression of anything upbuilding or fun, and limits all social interaction to the Kingdom Hall and suppresses any celebrations whatsoever. Doesn't matter that even the JEWS had Passover, Jubilee celebrations, harvest festivles, and other celebrations - JW's have NOTHING, I repeat, NOTHING to celebrate. But then again, they have nothing to celebrate about. What is there? False doctrine, false prophecies, false sense of The End, hell everything is a bummer with them. What a way to live!!!
Congrats on your escape and welcome, we on here can truly relate.
- Wing Commander