Truck:
I guess my question is What part of the Bible should I believe? I am a fairly intelligent and smart woman, but a part of me still misses having God in my life
Why believe anything about God? Beliefs are only ideas and concepts. Is a belief about a tree, a real tree?
Perhaps God is not so tiny and insubstantial as to be "missing" from your life. This tiny idea of a god is often a remnant of ancient tribal and biblical thinking. Let go of it, and be present in this moment of existence. Embrace the actual vibrancy and reality of life and see what godliness you can find here. Perhaps God is not so diminutive as to be absent, and rather it is your temporary inability to see.
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