Journey:
Are you only talking about religion's interpretation of God?
What about people like me that believe in God as the Creative Energy that produced space and matter and continues to evolve intelligently interacting with its own creation?
I certainly can not answer for Terry, but if you don't mind here is my take on your situation.
Religious interpretations and beliefs in a god are -- upon inspection -- only mental constructs to which we come to identify and become addicted, and which have no basis in reality. They are stories and imagery passed down to us from someone else's imagination. Does this make sense? Can you actually see this?
You openly confess that you now embrace beliefs and interpritations of a "God" far larger than the Biblical interpretation. Have we not just traded one illusory interpretation and belief for another? The names have changed, the story line has changed some, but the fiction remains the same.
The mind is a wondrous and powerful tool. However, when we allow it to determine and conceptually create our most foundational significance and reality, we are left holding no reality at all; only more beliefs. Such endeavors are a misuse of the mind.
There is another way.
j