I Know the feeling, Hi I'm Mike, also from New Zealand. I came to be a JW at 12 years of age. I loved what I thought was the way to find my God Jehovah and find true friends. Some Friends!!! After losing my Father at the later part of being 12 some thought this a good time to step in and replace my father and sort me out at the same time. The funny thing was I love going to meetings and as far as I know I wasn't doing anything bad. Didn't make much diff cos I was easy to pick on as a JW... Why? because I was Honest, Sure I've got "Worldly Friends" so what!!! got'a have some to witness to right?
At about 15 I was in and out as far as going to meetings, In between taking bullshit from pricks that hadn't done shit and did'nt know shit about what they were gettin up me over. Because it was all bullshit (Drank one Beer, Run a Yellow light, and.. OH MY GOD.. a female in the car with, get this, my male friend is in the car with me at the same time, and we aren't parked up or anything. ALL JW's too) I was never booted out or anything. They just make it known to everyone to blackmark me. Thanks ya pricks, so no JW firends, what the F&^K do you dicks think I going to get out of that brotherly love. At 21 I believed god must think the same way. And the sad thing was I didn't want to lose Jehovah, go out into the "world" , Yep at 21 I still had kept to what should be a good standing as a JW.. just didn't go to many meetings. But what did happen was the shit from all those years started adding up, after many many!! warning signs that no one gave a shit about I jumped 40 meters to what I thought would be my end.
"If thats what Mike does to get out of a hard time he's not taken in what we have been saying. Jehovah hates those who have no respect for their life" Yep that was the sort of brotherly love I got when I found out that life goes on. Six months later I can nearly return to work after beating odds that the doctor said were 100 to 1
Now the thing here is that a little after a year goes by I meet my wife Susan, a JW... yep I'm still hangin in there. We have been happily together for 7 years. But both of us see and know only to well the hate that JW's can show if you step outside their little ideas. Just lately we have stopped going to meetings as Susan's father the New Elder, wouldn't give up messing in our bussines. So now Susan doen't have a Father, mother or brother.. because we don't go to meetings anymore. Jesus I am sure would be so Happy to see his flock so well cared for here in New Zealand.
Thanks for reading
MIKE