If you go to the topic "will I ever belong"... you will see some other artwork... Just noticed alot of you sharing pictures and stuff. This painting entitled "Sadness", the name says it all. I spent many years feeling that way after leaving the religous structure. Like I did not belong. Art saved my butt. Tony Hutt is a photographer... he took a picture of this model... and I just saw the "shame" in the photograph... so I painted it... I did it in about twenty minutes. What do ya think? I still mix all my own colors... from the primaries... and use alot of leftover house paints.. but since my studio took off.. I can now afford real paint... I just like the old way better for some reason. Opinions alway welcome.... and no I am not gay... I am married, to lovely british woman.... the pecker was there, so I painted it too.
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Kat Newmas Shares another art piece.
by kat_newmas inif you go to the topic "will i ever belong"... you will see some other artwork... just noticed alot of you sharing pictures and stuff.
this painting entitled "sadness", the name says it all.
i spent many years feeling that way after leaving the religous structure.
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Will I Ever Belong
by rebel inas a jw, i was always on the outside, looking in.
i never belonged and boy, did they make sure i knew it!!!.
all my life i have been an outsider.
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kat_newmas
the lion was play time painting though... I was just hangin out in the back yard one day, I found a photo of a lion drinking... but this one I did on a half sheet of plywood about seven years ago... it is called the burning man... has nothing to do with "hell" .....It is my belief that man enjoys pain and suffering in some twisted way. suffering brings people together(like this site)....
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Will I Ever Belong
by rebel inas a jw, i was always on the outside, looking in.
i never belonged and boy, did they make sure i knew it!!!.
all my life i have been an outsider.
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kat_newmas
I also "know how you feel" (boy I could post that message on half of these boards!) I dont "fit in" either. For years I let that get the best of me... kept trying to justify it... I mean they teach you to "be no part of the world" and then by the time you get the nerve up to leave.... you dont know how to be a part of anything else.
I made it work for me though. You can too.... concentrate on the things that MAKE you different. With too much time alone on my hands, I began to play with some leftover exterior house paint and some ply-wood. Now ten years later... I am artist.
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What does it take to live forever?
by JH in.
as a jw, we were told that we had to be saved in order to live eternally.
do you still hope to live eternally, or did this dream fade away?
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kat_newmas
When I was eight... this is what I wondered....
How could you come back and live on a paradise earth... and be the same person? I mean, would you remember those others in you family, who "didnt make it in"? The experiences that each of us have had in life, all contribute to our personality now... the person we have become... so if resurrected exactly as we are now.... would be a contradiction. If my father makes it in.... then would he still like to fish?
I know that is weird (consider the source though)
It is my belief now, that "resurrection" and the concept of "re-incarnation" are somehow intertwined. That which is called "heaven" is actually just, the next step in the cycle of life.
That each time we die, and are "re-born" in a different form, we learn different lessons. After we have learned all that is necessary in this physical form, we will then be ready to "ascend"... to a higher form. We will outgrow the need for physical forms. It is said... energy never dies... it changes form. ie... soul. Even science agrees that we are almost pure electrical impulses. However....For those of you considering returning to the JW's.... just read all my posts.... you will see that sanity can become.... an issue, if you continue with them. (kat newmas walks away, mumbling something about toe-socks.... and little shiny butterflies)
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Freewriting
by zanex ini am just feeling somewhat poetic for some reason...bear with me.. i love my parents.
yet will never be there, be true.
there is a wall between us.
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kat_newmas
Beautiful.... it is my own story. Every line, brings the face of a family member of mine, to mind.
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This vs That
by animal inwow.. a serious post from animal... who woulda thought..... anyhow, we discussed something last weekend that needs more discussion.
it involves people born into the jw cult versus those that made an adult decision to join it.. my thoughts were:.
anyone not born into the cult have no idea of the mental anguish involved in being brainwashed, from birth, with all the cultisms.
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kat_newmas
Just my side....
I too was raised a brainwashed, scared little person. If you have read my posts you know that I left when I was twelve.. ran away... by the age of 18 I was still scared to death. It seemed, even though I knew they were wrong about being judgemental, and shunning their own children.... I just couldnt shake that "feeling" that I was going to be wiped out. They used to tell us that when armageddon came, people would try to shoot themselves in the head(scuicide) they said the gun would go off... and the bullet would go in... but the evil ones would not die... they would just suffer in a puddle of their own blood.... that was an image that I still dream about.... I am 33 now.
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My first time posting
by NAPPY ROOTS ini just wanted to say hi.
this is my first message.
i have been df for about 14 years.
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kat_newmas
Welcome and congradulations. I myself am fairly new, but have found much healing on this site. If for no other reason that I can just spout off about the whole tragedy.... I dont even have to make sense... and nobody seems to judge you here..... it is like therapy. I have even had some positive e-mails from others on this site, that seemed to lift me even more. Hope to bump into you on future posts.
Peace
Kat Newmas, artist
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Name just ONE...
by Brummie inname just one doctrine the society has been consistent with?
i can only think of their teaching of hell/sheol/soul...bet y'all cant think of another one .
eg....blood...never been consistent, couldnt have a single drop, can now have particles.... 1914 return of christ...began as 1874 ...was the beginning of the generation that would see the end yada.
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kat_newmas
YOu know you asked for it with this question.... so here goes....
They are consistent in the use of fear and guilt and shame.
They consistenly judge others, though they preach tolerance and love.
They consistently reject any free thought, as heresy.
They consistently treat women as property to be owned and controlled.
I know... I know... you said one thing. Just close your eyes and put your finger on the screen, and take your pick.
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SMURFS ?!
by mattnoel incan anyone tell me what was wrong with the smurfs ?.
i heard some horrible rumours about them as a kid, something about some kid taking a smurf to the kingdom hall, it making a whole lotta noise and then trotting off up the aisle until some burley elder threw it out the back !.
while we are on this point anyone ever have things taken away from them for being demonic etc
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kat_newmas
It is the things like this that just make me laugh... here you have seemingly intelligent people, who do research, and study history, and have created a powerful organization that generates much money, and assymilates many people...... and they believe that smurf dolls go dancing in the moonlight, and watching re-runs of "Bewitched" will bring the "devil" in your house.
I remember being very young when the whole smurfy dillema came about. Even then I thought to myself "you cant be for real?...... I know you aint telling me, that in this day and age, we still believe the boogie man is going to get us by way of smurfs."
BLUE PEOPLE...... smurfs DO exist I say... little tiny Blue People, and they run around singing songs, and gathering smurfberries. (kat newmas wanders off mumbling about little blue people....)
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Misogyny----anyone here guilty?
by Tatiana inafter reading the post on how to "treat your husband," i'd like to know if any men here actually feel this way about women.
everyone jokes around about male/female relationships, but how many really think women are inferior?
i know from some serious posts i've read here, that a few of the men must have really been hurt by someone.
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kat_newmas
Unfortunately for woman-kind..... man was endowed with a penis.
As the owner of a penis, the male is subject to blockheadedness, stubborness, being controlling, jealous, and in general.... penis like. BUT I have conquered my own disability, as the owner of a penis myself...
I treat my wife with respect and as an equal. We both work. I do not expect to "come home to a hot meal" any more than she does. It is not my wifes "job" to clean the house.... it is not my "job" to pay the bills.... all these things are shared equally.
My wife is an intelligent corporate killing machine (clerically speaking) I am an artist. We share all things equally.... No elders come to my house and tell us how to, or how often we should copulate. I do not co-erce, force, nag, or otherwise "inflict" sex on my wife. We share that too.
My wife is my.... religion. She is my companion, and friend. I would truly be lost without her. She is not property, or someone I feel a need to "be the head of"..... Confucius Say..."the head cannot turn without the neck"