Welcome to the forum. The JW religion holds two sets of rules: one set for the "outsiders" and another set for the "baptised."
The organization is more tolerant with the outsiders. Once you are baptised, there is no way out, you must tow the JW line. The elders will disfellowship you if they see any doubt or dissension. They expect perfection from imperfect humans. One "in" you can never do enough for the organization...more money, more service, more loyalty. The loyalty is not to God, but to the Watchtower organization.
The WT organization is about "religion" rather than "spirituality." It is about following a set of rigid rules, rather than following your own internal conscience.
Please be careful making your decision. Don't be fooled by the "love-bombing" and don't be fooled by emotion. Learn the facts. Love-bombing ends once you are baptised.
Be open to the criticism you hear because that comes from having experienced the inner cogs of the WT organization.
I suggest you read "Crisis of Conscience" by Raymond Franz. That book will provide an inside view of how the organization is really run at the top.
Best,
ESTEE