Posts by ESTEE

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nagging doubt

by JNS2 in

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23 years ago

my journey from lurker to poster was pretty quick.

all the posts are addicting to read, this is worse than being a couch potato.

i've been fortified to make a clean break & them the little inner voice starts talking back.

23 years ago

ESTEE 23 years ago

JNS2, honey...

That nagging inner voice that has you second guessing yourself?

We all have it. Many of us identify that feeling as being JW FEAR. By that I mean, in dub-ville we were taught not to trust our heart or our instincts. Now that you have left, it is hard to automatically stop those critical inner voices from badgering you and beating you and berating you and demanding more MORE MORE of you.

Stopping that insanity is a process. Rest assured. . . in time, you will learn to relax and treat yourself in a more loving and more nurturing way. The jw way is very harsh and unloving, isn't it . . .

Surround yourself with people who are caring and sympathetic and who will support you in your healing journey. This forum is such a place.

Email me if you wish.

ESTEE

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What If We Are All Wrong?

by SpannerintheWorks in

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23 years ago

ludicrous as it may seem, the watchtower society may be right?...

yeah?

as so much of their doctrines are based on interpretation.. the watchtower society may have interpreted the bible... correctly!

23 years ago

ESTEE 23 years ago

I will no longer believe the jw version of who god is. . .I just won't believe that is how god wants us to see him/her. (Cruel, vindictive, inspiring fear, teaching conditional love). Nah, that just doesn't fit, for me.

However, I think it is healthy for you to question things. Keep asking, and you will have your answers. For you, it may be going back to the jws.

ESTEE

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OOOOO, this is gonna hurt, and I put the hurt on..

by Jesika in

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23 years ago

i don't know if everyone knows, but my boyfriend (alex) bought me a health club membership for my birthday(i asked for one).

so, the package deal he got was a buy 1yr get 2 free deal including 5 free personal training sessions.

well, the first one was easy---------------measurements,weighing in,goals,new diet, and so forth.

23 years ago

ESTEE 23 years ago

Jeskia,

I'm not surprised that guys hit on you!! . . . You are a gorgeous woman!! . . . . .

Love the red hair!!

Sis,

ESTEE

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My First Post - OK, I'm In Now.

by TheItalian in

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23 years ago

i apologize in advance for the length.

when i finally resolved myself to choose a nick, after a year and a half spent as an infamous lurker, i very likely thought to be the only one from this vaticanland interested in this weird net-place and its inhabitants.

but yesterday i found out it's not this way.

23 years ago

ESTEE 23 years ago

Welcome TI!! You are among friends here!! J

ESTEE

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i am getting stronger,,,i am so proud

by ugg in

23 years ago

ok,,,i am patting myself on the back!!!!

( i did not take my humble pill today) i am just so happy and proud.... to anyone who reads this it may seem quite silly...but for me it is such an accomplishment... after months of therapy,,i have found the courage to "reveal" myself....i was able to reach out and write personally to 2 friends..it was great!!!!

fear!!!

23 years ago

ESTEE 23 years ago

((((((Hugs for Ugg!!!)))))

I feel very proud of you Ugg! Glad you are feeling and acknowledging your own baby steps and progress. Wonderful! Keep walkin!! You are among friends here!!

ESTEE

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Girls are EVIL!!!

by pr_capone in

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23 years ago

ESTEE 23 years ago

Yeah! . . .$HOE$! . . . Lot$ 'n' lot$ of $hoe$!!!!

Jewelry! . . . $hoes$! . . . Flower$! . . . $hoe$! . . .Bath & Beauty! . . . $hoe$!

Thigh High$! . . . aka: $lut $tocking$$ . . .to go with the $hoe$! . . .

Clothe$! . . . to go with the $lut $tocking$! . . . to go with the $hoe$! . . .

Yeah, Girl$ are $$$$$$OOOOO BAAAAD!

E$TEE

Edited by - ESTEE on 4 January 2003 14:49:49

Edited by request

Edited by - angharad on 23 January 2003 5:5:10

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To My Mother

by MrMoe in

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23 years ago

at about 6:30 this evening my mother passed away.. .

the best mother and the best wife anybody could ever be blessed with.

she was not only my mother, she was my friend.

23 years ago

ESTEE 23 years ago

Rosebushes remind me of my mom. We lived on a farm and every summer my mom would pick a small bunch of rosebuds . . . . .not the full blooms. . . . .only the rosebuds. Then she would put them in water and the next morning they would open. They were perfect . . . and the scent would fill her bedroom.

I pick wild rosebuds now every summer. When I do, I feel very close to my mom. I feel her presence and I talk to her. And I cry. I look forward to the rose blossoms in summer, because it renews my memories and love for my mom.

Love,

Esther

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Did a stranger baptize you?

by JH in

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23 years ago

shouldn't it have been the person who gave you your bible study, that should have baptized you?

in matthew 28:19,20 it says "go therefore and make disciples, baptizing them in the name of the father, the son, and the holy spirit.. the way i see it, it should have been the one who gave you the biblical knowledge, that should have baptized you.

making disciples is phase one, and baptizing them is phase two.

23 years ago

ESTEE 23 years ago

Sisters can't baptize, can they?

JH, if you were referring to my post ? About the sisters that studied with me being nowhere in sight?

I just meant that the sisters were not there to support me or witness the momentous occasion of my baptism. <gag>

I did not mean the sisters were supposed to baptize me! I KNEW enough jw rules by then to KNOW that was NOT done! Hehehe!

ESTEE

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To My Mother

by MrMoe in

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23 years ago

at about 6:30 this evening my mother passed away.. .

the best mother and the best wife anybody could ever be blessed with.

she was not only my mother, she was my friend.

23 years ago

ESTEE 23 years ago

MrMoe,

My mom was jw when she died. I was disfellowshipped two weeks after she died. The elders sure do have a keen sense of timing and sensitivity about things like death. <note of sarcasm>

I wonder if she had lived, if she would still talk to me. My adult kids shun me. My kids didn't even send me a sympathy card, even though I was not yet disfellowshipped at the time that mom died.

My mom lived in a Senior's Residence with her husband, my stepdad. A week after she died, pop's sons moved him to Alberta. He died a year later. The stepkids took all her stuff, except for a few boxes that I took when I cleaned her apartment out (fine china).

My mom wanted me to have her antique china cabinet. The stepkids sold it.

I did get her wedding rings, though. She had them hidden in her bedroom. The stepkids would have NEVER found them. I wear her wedding rings all the time, on my right hand. I still feel close to my mom. I visit her grave whenever I am in Selkirk, Manitoba.

And I don't think she would have shunned me. We were very close.

Love,

ESTEE

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ATTENTION APOSTATES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

by GING in

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23 years ago

u apostates.... fallen ones..... spiritually weak ones.....whatever u want to call u r selfs make me sick... all u display is hate.

quit u r pathetic crusade to destroy the wts.

u r childish " if i cant have it... no one can" attitude.. apostate 1) " once at a meeting a talk was given and the elder said we should pray for the spiritually weak ones in the cong!!!!!!..

23 years ago

ESTEE 23 years ago

Isn't there some kind of jw rule that says no JW is allowed to register with a non-jw religious organization??

I guess that makes HIM an apostate!

LMAO

ESTEE

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