Cheyanne
I think we all have those feelings at times. But what we need to do is look inside our self and know what is best for us. We all know right from wrong. We dont need a religion telling us that, we need to decide for ourselves.
It is hard to get the ingrainment of the borg out of our skin, its like some black clothes dye that we have touched, it takes ages, no matter how hard we scrub to remove the stain but slowly it fades, little bit by little bit.
It is the same for the teachings and mind control of the witnesses. Just take it one day at a time.
Welcome and I am glad to see you have "come out of the closet" so to speak.
Regards
Kim