I can really relate to this one. My dad used to talk about how he fully expected that witnesses would all be put in concentration camp type places, prisons etc, supposedly as Jehovah's way of "protecting his people when A..strikes". I grew up really terrified of Armageddon personally, with all the mucky muck my dad used to talk about. Plus he'd make us read those year books with all those horror stories of people getting sticks shoved up their fingernails etc, all the situations in Malawi, etc. So, Yeah I grew up really afraid. I still haven't figured out how to view world events as they come, because of all the crap I was taught while growing up, third generation.
Big Tex.............wow...That's how I felt when I got my divorce from that sonofa....B. I divorced him with the firm belief that if God was going to hate me for divorcing my abusive husband, then I didn't need this kind of God and I'd be happier destroyed at A, then to live forever under this kind of ruler. I'm so anxious to meet up with you and your wife sometime soon, hopefully before my wedding! LOL