You can't un-ring a bell or unlearn ttatt?
I was an elder for 2+ decades also and really had to force myself to give meeting parts and public talks and go on sheep herding calls over the last 7-8 years. I still go occasionally on Sunday for the sake of my pimi wife so I guess I'm not considered a full blown 'inactive'. Haven't been in fs for about 7-8 years and not one sheep herding call from the "concerned, loving" elders!
just saying!