Dear be wise: I sat in on 32 Elders and Servants meeting with the CO. That whole week was always the phoney holy week at the Hall! People who hardly spoke to each other would hug and coo and act all loving to impress the CO! It may me want to hurl! The Elders meetings were no different, (except for the prayer and scriptures), than the payroll and production planning meetings I sat in on when I was the Art Director of this publishing company in So. Calif. Some Servants would suck up to the CO, some were terrified and sat mute, some had a personal agenda that they wanted to promote and end-run the local Elders, which always pissed them off! Very little of any real spiritual information was ever discussed. It was all Organizational. Remember the CO is a corporate inspector who's job is to make sure corporate policy is followed to the letter and that headquarters get there 'cut' ! So to answer your question, "It is not you, what you are seeing is what we all were seeing". Maverick