azaria
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In Your Opinion, What Is The Purpose Of This Board?
by minimus inmy understanding is that this board can serve as a place to come so that jw's and ex-jw's can get together to discuss mostly, jw issues as well as matters such as our likes and dislikes of a non-religious nature.
since there are so many posters here, could you please express what you think this place is for?
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Initially I just wanted information on the Jehovah Witness Organization. My parents are witnesses. I had a very negative gut feeling about this org. but wanted to be sure if the feeling was right. Was it just embarrassing? Salvation Army could be considered embarrasing. But I have great respect for them. I know a number people that belong to the SA and they are wonderful, caring people. So that wasn’t the problem. I asked God, please show me, are they right or not? Reading some books and going to place like H20 and this site has helped me greatly. Because of time I’m unable to read a lot of posts. I read and respond to a few. What I realized in the last few days, I completely ignore any reference to JW’s. I think I had an obsesssive attraction to it. Thank you "Forum for JW’s". I’m starting to put it behind me. What will I obsess about now?
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?I NEVER , ever, thought I would say this....
by azaria inmb: .
for the past week or so my mind has been going a mile a minute.
ill be at work, in bed, wherever, things come into my head, and i have to write it down that very moment.
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MB:
For the past week or so my mind has been going a mile a minute. I’ll be at work, in bed, wherever, things come into my head, and I have to write it down that very moment. I wonder if it will lead to anything, what does it mean? Are they light-bulb moments or manic episodes. Over the years I have accumulated some information (in my mind) by reading, watching programmes (on PBS and the like), talking to friends, rolling things in my own mind, etc. Is it just all starting to come together for me? or just nonsense? I have asked God for understanding. Last night as I turned on my light to write something down for the second time, I kind of chuckled, I didn’t ask for this much, it’s too much information! (I’m joking-I think?) But I wasn’t stressed at all. It just seems to come. Does this happen to anyone else, or am I just wired wrong? Anyway one of the things that I’ve been mulling in my mind, was the first humans. First of all I had read a book written by a rabbi a couple years ago, that he thought that humanity started with Adam & Eve. It was a slightly different take on it. I have always thought, God created animals and then He created Man. Could man really have been first a chimp and then over time some became man, just as evolutionists had said? A couple of days ago I thought, maybe...and this is the thing that I thought I would never say; maybe it's possible that we did come from chimps. At this time it’s not something that I believe, but just thinking about. Maybe the moment that Adam & Eve (call them what you will) made the decision to eat from the apple tree (symbolism) that’s when they became human. Today coming home from work I was listening to the news. A scientist stated that the dna of a chimp and a human is 99.4% (or was 94.9%) the same. That blows my mind! I don’t think this has to take away the validity of the bible at all. That to some extent they can go hand in hand. (but only so far-I will never believe that the universe just happened) Maybe in time I will discard this idea, and say that it was an insane moment in my life. I do believe in God, that He created everything, that the Bible is inspired (but I don’t think that he dictated word for word) Each person that wrote parts of the bible was inspired but still kept their own unique character and personality. Just like when a composer or artist creates something, they may be inspired, but something or someone outside of themselves isn’t telling them what to write or paint. Just some crazy thoughts? Please, please be kind.
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Welcome everyone
by Cadaver inhey,.
i'm from holland.. i'm not that very well english typer, so don't be mad at me ok?.
see all you a round the board.. .
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Hey Greven:
You forgot me!! I may not live in the Netherlands anymore, but part of my heart will always be there. I was born in North-Holland near Amsterdam. I've lived in Canada most of my life and love it here.
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Hi sf:
Just a quick note before I go to work. I wasn't sure what you meant by your comment. This morning I realized that some people, maybe most, thought when I said about the legacy the children inherited because of these monsters, I did not mean the German army as a whole. I only meant the leaders. As for the group mentality, that can be a positive (as in a symphony orchestra, choir, charity work, etc) but there is also a negative. If my comment gave you or anyone any grief, I'm so sorry. Sorry about the grammar but it's early morning and I have to rush off.
Have a great day!
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I'll be taking a break "You all deserve it"
by JH indid you ever reach a point where you don't have anything left to say and are unable to start any decent threads?
maybe it's the nice warm weather that just arrivied in quebec.
83f today or i need a break to re-energize my mind.
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MB:
(to the tune of the Mickey Mouse Club)
Now it’s time to say good-bye to the Forum Family
C -A- N -A -D -A JH ALL THE WAY!
Canada
Canada
Forever hold your head up high! High! High! Can’t remember the song anymore!
JH I understand the feeling. That’s why I like the fluff posts-hey your’s are fluff posts. Anyway I like them. It relieves the stress we sometimes feel here and in our lives. You state that you will be back once in a while. Within a couple of weeks I will be posting less also, just because it's getting too busy, with work and everything. Have a great summer!
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anyone else find that...
by Ghost of Esmeralda in...birthdays are as depressing as all get out?.
this is only my fifth year even acknowledging them in any way...but i still find them horribly depressing.
i got cards from some of my friends and stuff from my husband and daughter and my husband's family, which is wonderful...but only one of my ex-jw friends remembered...(thanks, mulan...) i wish that i didn't know what my birthday was.
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Thankfully birthdays don't bother me. When I turned 30, for a few moments I thought, oh no I'm 30 and immediately got over it. The only time it really bothered me was when I turned 40, but only because I wanted another child (my husband didn't) and I felt like that door was closed. I cried off and on for 3 days. Before I turned 50 I started to psyche myself up that after 50 would be the best years of my life. I had a wonderful surprise birthday party and a number of really dear friends were there. The first couple of years were the pits. I left my husband (I don't recommend this for everybody) and things are going really well! My daughter is much happier too. Sorry I missed your birthday! When was it? I tend to ramble on too much...I wish I was like some of the posters, one word, one sentence, but I am who am.
Here's a belated "Happy Birthday!!"
chin up
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If you could spend a whole day with anyone .......
by azaria indead (resurrected ) or alive who would you choose?.
mood barometer: a little melancholy, but basically .
every once in a while i think of who i would like to meet.
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dead (resurrected ) or alive who would you choose?
Mood Barometer: a little melancholy, but basically
Every once in a while I think of who I would like to meet. I thought about this yesterday. Without any doubt I know the first would be my grandmother (oma). I lost her when I was 12 and I still think of her and miss her. It would be wonderful to talk, spend a day with her, at the age I am now. The other would be Jesus. If I wasn’t too awestruck, I would hope that I would be able to ask some questions, but maybe just to spend time with him. Beethoven?-maybe just to observe. Then it dawned on me who I would really like to spend time with, me as a little girl. I would hold her hand and say it will get rough but you will get through it smiling. Who would you want to spend time with?
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Azaria: mood barometer for today: sunny disposition, not at all angry, but struggling with some issues
I saw the programme last night and plan to see the conclusion Wednesday night. That Hitler was mentally ill, I don’t think too many would argue with. Yes he had a bad childhood; a lot of children do and they don’t do what he did. Could it be in part because his father and mother were related to each other? (uncle, niece). Are the mentally ill capable of knowing that they are evil? In my opinion to blame Hitler for all the monstrous acts that happened is a serious mistake. I think it was a lot more complex than that. I don’t think one individual can have so much influence, at least I hope not. I think there were many that may have been even more evil than him. He had a sick kind of charisma that a lot of people seemed to fall for. I also think that the German people of the time have to take some responsibility for what happened. The people were angry, things were falling apart, people were going hungry so they felt that they had the right to dump on a group of people, that way they didn’t have to take any responsibility for themselves. (See it’s their fault we’re in this mess.) To me a Nazi is more of an attitude; not necessarily a German soldier who fought in the war. (though I do think that certain nationalities have a group mentality more so than others-right or wrong, that’s what I think) There were Dutch Nazis, Polish Nazis, etc. I have to admit that I do have a prejudice against some older German men. I do wonder; did they fight in the German army? were they cruel? or were they just young boys following orders? (some in my opinion are very aloof, almost cold, critical-but maybe the aloofness covers a shyness?) I know that German men don’t have a monopoly on aloofness, cruelty; any person of any nationality can have those same traits) But I don’t have an intolerance towards German people in general, just some. Do I think that it’s right that I feel this way. I don’t. My mother, who was nine when the war started, does have a problem with German people. (she lived near Amsterdam) It’s understandable but that does not make it right. My prejudice didn’t rear its ugly head till I was in my 40's, for reasons beyond me. Maybe because of personal things that I was going through at the time, I don’t know. I do struggle with it; I know it’s wrong. I feel for the children, grandchildren of these monsters. Many years ago I saw a programme where a number of offspring were interviewed. What a legacy to have to live with. I remember watching another programme during the 60's, (I would have been in my teens) I can’t remember the individual, if he was a jury member? It was during Eichmann’s trial? This Jewish man looked at Eichmann, (Nuhrenburg Trials?) and thought to himself, this could be anyone; he’s really no different than I am. It must be scary to look evil in the eye. (I don’t know if I got all the info correct, but it was a long time ago) I do think that even Martin Luther has to take a small bit of responsibility for it also. He was a great man, but near the end of his life, I understand, he did make some anti-Semitic remarks. Remarks like these, over time, get into peoples’ psyche. At times when I hear an anti-Semitic or racial slur on some level it still amazes me. Such ignorance, such arrogance. One thing I didn’t realize was that some blamed the Dutch Communists? I knew that Hitler was Austrian and that his real name was Hiedler-correct spelling? (though I don’t think the latter was mentioned) I do worry about history repeating itself. When will we learn that we are all human beings. Though that’s a very difficult thing to say in light of what some people are capable of doing. When a sick individual like Hitler comes around, that we can do the right thing and get the proper help for him. But I don’t think that will happen. There will always be a Hitler, Saddam Hussein, etc. There will always be a scapegoat, the Jews, African-American, etc. It always seems to happen during difficult times, and the people want a saviour to get them out of it and they blame someone or a group of people other than themselves. One thing, I do think it’s unfair to compare Bush with Hitler. Though I have to admit that Bush seems to throw his weight around, and if some individuals question it (eg. an American who criticizes Bush is anti-American which I think is a low blow) (I’m really no fan of Cretien-but he stood up for what he believed-he wasn’t going to allow Bush to influence (maybe bully?) him (us) if he (we) thought the war was wrong-I would like to think that it was his only motive-that he thought it was an immoral war) I don’t believe Bush likes or thinks much about Canada, but I could be wrong and if I’m not wrong, I personally can live with it (as long as it doesn’t hurt the economy) Because Bush may not like us, doesn’t mean that Americans’ as a whole don’t like us-I also like to think that as a nation we have more confidence in ourselves and not pooh-pooh? because someone might not like us) I personally was not for the war in Iraq war because I didn't know enough to have an opinion, I think a lot people fetlt that way. Lets slow down and think about it. That's my thoughts. I know, I ramble on too much.
One thing I have to clarify; someone once mentioned, that sometimes people read into a post that the poster might be angry. I read one of my earlier posts, where someone could have thought that I was angry, but I wasn’t at all, just a little annoyed. Maybe from now on I’ll have a mood barometer beside my name. Azaria-today-calm, sunny, or cynical, annoyed, etc. or just a smiley face so if anyone reads my post they will know my mood.
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Welcome everyone
by Cadaver inhey,.
i'm from holland.. i'm not that very well english typer, so don't be mad at me ok?.
see all you a round the board.. .
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azaria
Oh wat luek? Welcome Cadaver!