hello friends,.
since i'm not going to the memorial for the first time since i've became a witness, i wanted to post my "j dub" life story as a form of therapy.. i guess i'm posting this here, also, as sort of a refreshment for others who taken this road.
after much study, i've finally disassociated myself - in my heart at least.
dear confuzcious,
i appreciated reading your story. anytime a person is judged with bias and prejudice it is wrong. it is just so sad when it hurts one so deeply.
i am sorry for the sad and frustrating times you endured and glad that you are now in a happier space.
my very best wishes to you,
nowisee
thanks for defending me, mystery. oh, this has already happened to me before, i seem to bring up subjects that have already been covered in the past. well i have been here only a month.
dear prof. carmel -- no i'm not doing a book and i will do nothing in particular with the information. i am simply curious. in the short time i have been here i have just been so impressed with the intelligence and in depth thought of some of the posters, my curiosity got the better of me. it also seems that people like to answer these questions about themselves - i know i enjoy it when someone shows an interest in me.
unfortunately i did not go to college. sometimes it is intimidating for one like me who has not had formal education to interact with those who have. it is hard not to feel inferior and at somewhat of a disadvantage.
i grew up a child of 2 jw parents who both had come through the depression - not poverty stricken, but by no means well off. my father was sexist - told me that girls didn't need an education, that i would get married and have babies and that was that. my religion told me that higher education would corrupt my mind and pull me away from god and lead to my destruction, and that was that.
so i did marry very young and we pioneered, living on very little money. when i finally found the will to leave my husband and jws it was all i could do to support myself - i had no savings and no support from any other source but myself. keeping my life together was my full-time occupation.
when i miraculously found the will and the means l2 years later to attend a trade school i had no support from anywhere. well anyway, i don't want a pity party.....many posters here have endured much more than i have. suffice it to say that it is a large regret that i did not go to college.
in the last few days some other posters on the forum have implied that some of my comments have been idiotic and moronic. as i write this im tearing up - i suppose this question sprang from my own feelings of inferiority. does that give you your answer?
i haven't been to my circuit assembly yet, but i was told that one of the talks speaks about the horrible sin of being overweight, how jehovah hates fat and how we can not make it in the new world if we are fat.
is there anyone who knows about this?
further to blondie, see ezekiel 34:20.
are you happy to have been a jw?
is there a constructive side in it all for you?
or do you wish you had never seen their culty smiles?.
welcome frankie!
you should introduce yourself properly and tell us about yourself.
my best wishes to you, nowisee
this is a story i recently wrote about my cat, squeak:.
i said goodby to squeak yesterday.
having had to do so has been a most humbling experience.. i have been thinking back over the last l8 years of her life.
thanks acsot and kelpie.
i appreciate your well wishes and kind words.
it seems it won't be too long now before i'll have another furball (or 2) in my life.
how many out here know a loved one or know of someone who suffers from depression and it is from being in the borg and never feel you are doing enough.
my ex wife would always lapse into a few month state of depression right after a visit from the c/o and getting pounded on about f/s hours or not enough studies or not enough pioneers yadda yadda yadda.
i know with my ex that the constant fear of armageddon and feeling inadequate was a depression trigger ready to be pulled at any instant.
well, i seem to keep bumping into you this morning.
i am so glad for you that life is better now.
my best to you again, nowisee
are you happy to have been a jw?
is there a constructive side in it all for you?
or do you wish you had never seen their culty smiles?.
so, tazmaniac, you have spoken at circuit and district assemblies??
i know this has been discussed before but i think a fresh thread on this will be enjoyable.
gita....
i remember jesse cantwell too. he is probably the first co name in my memory -- i was just a little girl.
i do remember that my father thought highly of him. i remember enthusiastic handshakes and big smiles.
another name that comes to mind is george couch. seems to me i read something recently somewhere along the line about him. is he very in or very out of wts??
by popular demand a new batch of wt covers.
enjoy!.
funny wt covers # 1. funny wt covers # 2:.
very, very funny. a welcome diversion. keep them coming.
