Why where is it exactly that your going? Back to meetinigs?
Hi Whatthehades, seeing the truth about the truth is one thing, leaving and stepping away is another thing.. clearing ones head is the real big one. The alternative which is living a life that you know not to be real or true and no longer believe in is the biggest and hardest thing of all and I'd say more damaging than anything you could ever possibly do to yourself.
Clearing this stuff from my head has been going on years now for me and I'm still not quite done and I was not even born in! Hang in there.
This helped me..