We were invited out on the average about once every 3 months. Although when I became less spiritual (not selling enough Watchtowers), the invites dried up, just when I really could have used some encouragement.
Hapgood
how's your weekend going?
fine weather here in oz with bright blue skies and very cool nights - it's mid-winter.
mrs ozzie and i have been feeling a bit jaded as a good friend and colleague died last week and the funeral was on friday.
We were invited out on the average about once every 3 months. Although when I became less spiritual (not selling enough Watchtowers), the invites dried up, just when I really could have used some encouragement.
Hapgood
when you look back at it, what irked you most about being a jw?
Minimus that is so true "to be a good jw you have to learn to do things that are unnatural"
An Elder brought out in one of his talks how JWs that were extroverts had an easier time being a JW. At the time I was thinking why would Jehovah have a religion that favored people that were of the outgoing type, it hardly seems fair when our lives are at stake. The religion doesn't take into account (or even wants, it seems) people with a timid type of personality that can't adapt. I was never able to adapt, so I figured I was destined to be bird food at Armageddon because of the personality I was born with. Quite a heavy load to carry.
Hapgood
we are having her party tomorrow.
we love this baby so very much.
she is our precious little angel.
Happy Birthday to your precious little Granddaughter, Jaded!
Yes, I agree, it's great to have a second chance with our Grandchildren. That's one thing I could never understand while I was a jw, why we couldn't celebrate birthdays, I just thought I was a little thick because I didn't get it.
My Grandson just turned two in July. When all of us sang Happy Birthday to him, his little face just beamed with happiness, his grin went from ear to ear. These are the moments in life to cherish, and I'm so thankful that I can now experience them.
Enjoy the party!
Hapgood
when you look back at it, what irked you most about being a jw?
I would have to say going out in field service, commenting at meetings, and the TMS. I'm a shy person by nature, knocking on peoples doors was sheer torture for me. I have trouble with speaking in front of an audience so the TMS was bad news for me. When I get nervous I tend to hyper-ventilate, didn't sound real pretty going over the sound system (hey, somebody get that sister a bag). I guess I didn't make a good salesman publisher.
Hapgood
i'm sitting at work today, listening to all the different "cliques" around me, typing here on these boards a bit (don't tell), and it occurred to me again that i just don't fit.. .
it seems like i don't "fit" anywhere.
i'm always on the outskirts of alot of "groups", always on the fringe, but never inside.
(((Pettygrundger))) I've always enjoyed your posts!
From all the responses to your post there is alot of us in the same boat. All my life I've always felt like a square peg trying to fit in a round hole. I'm kind of a loner. Now that I left the jws, I don't have one friend. I still have my family (non jws), for which I am so thankful.
Your lucky that you have your husband and kids. My husband is still a JW, well we just aren't as close anymore, it's almost that he looks at me in disdain for having left the JWs.
(((Hugs to all us oddballs)))
Hapgood
....don't really know how to phrase my question any better than that.. see, i left when my daughter was 12 and my son was 19. but they were both ready to leave years before that!.
at 17, my son heard a talk about conforming to the borg.
"don't put any energy into being different," the speaker said.
My daughter left the lie "truth" when she was 18, she was never baptized. At first I was devastated, she was going to die at Armageddon, or so I thought at the time. But it was her treatment that got me to look into this so called religion. Not one of the "loving shepherds" (elders) even inquired about her, it was like she never existed to them. To me her leaving the jws was worse then death, but the treatment (or non treatment) that she got hurt me so much. No one cared! That's what hurt so bad, sure some of the "friends" asked about her, but no one offered to come and talk to her. Their lack of love actually did me a favor, I really with all my heart believed it was the "truth", even though I was very unhappy being a jw.
Hapgood
i was 13 at the time.
i wanted to get baptised before the end came in 1975. .
back then, 13 was borderline young for baptism, but from what i've been reading, some are now getting baptised as young as 9 or 10. .
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I was not born a jw, I willingly joined, but didn't really understand what I was getting into to.
recently we had a death in the family.
my little baby, my granddaughter died before she reached the age of 2.. i really loved that little girl.
this saddens me to no end.
Andy, I'm so sorry for the loss of your precious Granddaughter. My sincere sympathy to you and your family. Nothing is more heartbreaking then to lose a little one in death. I'm in tears as I read your post, I have a 2 year old Grandson, they are so precious.
Hapgood
i remember growing up and thinking that there was no way i would have kids ......... why ???
....... because i did not want to raise them the way i was raised, in the borg.
i went through hell, why put a defenceless child through that.
The Watchtower defiantly influenced our decision to have children. I came into the lie "truth" during the 1975 debacle when the end was "oh so soon! " At first it was the fear of Armageddon and putting children through the horrors that were soon going to come upon us all. Plus we reasoned, it would be better to wait until the new system and raise them on a paradise earth. Yes, I truly believed all this. But, we had a daughter in 1980, I was told "she will never start school."
After we had our daughter, I would liked to have had more children, but about this time I was having trouble "spiritually". I think I was suffering mild depression and as a result I had a hard time making meetings, service, participating, so I was labeled "spiritually weak." My husband didn't think it was wise to have any more children with a wife that was "spiritually challenged". That still hurts
Hapgood
i've been thinking about the part at the dc on "beware the voice of strangers".
they mention three areas to watch: any dissenting talk against the organization, the internet and the media(as in newspapers, news-shows on tv, etc.).
there's been quite a bit of talk already on this board about the internet part of the talk.
I get to have the privilege of going next weekend to hear all this garbage wonderful spiritual food. While they are mentioning those that talk against the organization, I'm sure that I'll be getting lots of sideways glances from my hubby to see my reaction to what is being said. I just hope that I can keep a straight face.
Thanks to all of you that have given your assembly report, at least I know what to expect.
Hapgood