Posts by Hapgood

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How have you changed since finding this forum?

by happehanna in

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my friends and daughters say that i am more relaxed and i seem happier in my own skin.

which is just great, but when i first started reading stuff here i was a quivering mess, i was in shock, but spending more time researching things are now slotting into place.. .

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As a JW I felt so beaten up, I was never good enough, could never do enough. I lived in fear of dying at Armageddon, I knew that I would not make it. Consequently, I was a very miserable, unhappy person with a very low self esteem. What I found out on this forum was, that's not true! This forum has made me realize it's the evil cult of the Jehovah's Witnesses that perpetuates this myth that we are never quite good enough, we could never do enough, it leaves us with unbearable guilt. When I realized that the JWs is just a book publishing company masquerading as a religion, that's when I was free. Thanks guys!!

It's been a long road and a long road is still ahead. I'm really happy now. I'm more relaxed. I'm more tolerant. I still need to work on the low self-esteem, I brought that with me when I joined the JWs. Being in the JW religion made it worse though. I'm still learning to think for myself, I'm having a really hard time with that. It's like my brain won't kick into that gear. I really like this forum for that reason, it forces me to think. I read your posts and I think "well how to I feel about that, or what is my opinion, or what would I do." Even though I didn't post, it gets me thinking. And it's great that I'm not alone on this journey.

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Prayer Request - Court Today

by outnfree in

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hello, dear people!

my cousin from texas, she of the abusive husband, cancer, and impending loss of home due to foreclosure, whom many of you helped greatly with gifts, good wishes, and personal attention (.

she requests prayer in agreement beginning at 10 am cst, that not only will she get the spousal support she is seeking but also that her divorce become finalized today, that god looks over the judge's shoulder and makes sure he is aware of all the suffering, abuse and malicious treatment she has endured for the past two years, as well as the financial facts of the case.

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Here's a prayer for Colleen that the Judge will have compassion for her situation. I'm on the east coast and it's 11:00 AM right now.

((((Brenda and Colleen)))

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26

The grandson i never got to know

by kls in

lately there has been threads on family members passing and each time i read them it bring up my grandson devon.

i think of him often but these sad threads of family dieing makes me wonder what he would look like ,what his interest would be.

he would have been 7 the first of march but it was not to be.

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kls, I'm so sorry for your loss, my heart goes out to you. Nothing is more heartbreaking then the death of a child. I admire you strength in driving your Grandson home, you are very brave.

kat2u and Thunder Rider, what beautiful poems. I'm in tears. So sorry for the loss of your Grandchildren.

(((Hugs)))

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Your Favorite Coffee Cup Says....

by little witch in

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mine says;

forgive me father for i have sinned

and it felt terrific!

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Mine says "Juanita". Nope, that's not my name. My hubby bought me this mug to replace the one that I really liked, but broke, that had my name on it. He couldn't find a replacement mug with my name on it, so he bought one for me that says "Juanita". Funny guy :-)

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Big Tex & cruzanheart: 1, Elders: 0

by cruzanheart in

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so it's a beautiful saturday morning in murphy, texas -- big tex was about to go to home depot and i was about to start weeding the garden when we looked out front and there was a nondescript 4-door sedan parked in front of our house.

the two guys in it weren't getting out, so we thought "uh-oh.

" i asked again, "why didn't you come and visit me then?

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Way to go guys!! Your replies were fantastic, I don't think they will be bothering you again for a long time. I can only hope that I keep my wits about me if the elders come by to ask me "The Question". I have some good ideas how I will answer :-) Thanks for the laugh!

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My Dad died a few hours ago

by BONEZZ in

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excuse me if i ramble...this is hard.

i have even avoided threads in the past where others have had to go thru this because i didn't want to face it.

guess i'm a wuss.

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((((((Bonezz))))))) I'm so sorry for your great loss..... Sending warm thoughts and prayers your way.

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My husband is using the web

by kls in

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last night i convinced my jw husband to start using the computer.

i am not good with it but enough to get the info.

for him this is a really big deal, he seemed scared at first ,probably because their are all apostates on the web and a demon may jump out to get him.

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kls, here's hoping that your hubby will do some investigation into this religion using the computer and find out the truth about the "truth". That's what I did. But my hubby is another story.

My hubby (a jw) works in the IT department at his job (works with computers). He's uses the Internet all the time to get information for his job at work. I've shown him stuff about the jws from non-apostate sites, done tons of research. You would think that with his computer background and him using the Internet at work to get information that he would look into the things that I have shown him. No way, he just sticks his head in the sand. It's enough to make me scream! He's so stubborn.

Garybuss and Dansk that's what I'm working on now to prove to my hubby that the 607 date is false. It's probably a waste of my time, that's why I have been putting it off. I have found alot of good information that I want to put together to show my hubby. Then I'm done, I give up.

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33

Coming Out With Pride & Confidence!

by Corvin in

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i have only been visiting this board for a couple months, but wow, how it has helped me!

thanks to everyone who has shared information and their stories, given advice, listened, reasoned, confessed, vented, cussed, challenged and supported.

i am formerly known as "hunyadi", but i made the decision to come out a few weeks ago.

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Corvin Welcome again. Thanks for posting your story. Congratulations on getting your daughters out of the jws. Like xjw said "3 teenagers....shudders" The fun begins :-) LOL at least they will be able to have a normal teen life. You sound like a very loving dad, that's what they need the most.

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Covering up bathroom mirrors at the assemblies!!!

by nojudgement in

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this was one of the craziest things i remember about the summer conventions.

i would go into the sister's bathrooms and the mirrors would all be taped up with brown paper so that we couldn't look at our reflections.

were were amish or something?

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I've never been to an Assembly where they covered up the mirrors. But I was friends with a very spunky sister that told me about mirrors being covered at an Assembly that she attended. She said "They treat us like a bunch of cattle." LOL too funny, at the time I must admit I was a little shocked at her attitude.

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33

Introductions

by CeriseRose in

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well not 'new', as i'm over 30. heh but i'm newly out (letter of disassociation dropped off at kh end of january, and i was announced last thursday night).

i posted my 'story' on a different ex-jw board, and as it is so long, i'm not reprinting it.

hehe even with cut and paste it's icky.

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Hi Cerise and Welcome!!!

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