Posts by larrynbabies

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question: scuicide and mental illness

by larrynbabies in

i am wondering if thier have been any recent studies done regarding a higher incident of scuicide and mental illness in the jw community

larrynbabies

I am trying the best I know how not to fall into megans footsteps. I have never in my life been so sad for so long and so deeply. I have just returned home from visiting my babies at thier aunt peggys house. We had an appointment today so my therapist can observe my babies and I interacting. It was a very positive visit I can be with them and there are times when everything is ok they can make me laugh and they can take my mind off of the pain of having lost my megan. then there are time when I look into my son chris's eyes and I see his mothers eyes in him and I cry I cant help it.

Going through this custody battle is killing me inside. I seem to have to give in to everyone and I cant get a break. Chris has long blond curly hair and is in need of his first haircut. You would think that it would be just a matter of making an apointment, getting a camcorder and getting it done. But nooooooooo. We have to get the JW granpa's permision. So we don't anger him and cause him to do something else that will cause us more grief. I swear that if his sister peggy is able to convince him to let us do it I am going to find some other blond curly hair to put into an envelope and give him as a souvenier.

The other twins name is Christopher he has a cleft pallet when he was 1 month old he was evaluated at childrens hospital and we set another apointment for 10 months later this apointment was his pre surgical appointment it was on feb 25 the day after megan passed away. His surgery was scheduled for 6 weeks later.

After his jw grandparents decievingly got temporary custody they canceled the surgery because it was to stressfull. We were informed last thurs that his surgery is set for the 21st of this month. Now we are scrambling around to get a court order that will allow him to recieve blood if he needs it. This guy is the devil incarnate it seems that he will do anything to cause me grief and to rub this whole situation in my face.

He blames me for megans scuicide and takes no responsibility himself. although his daughter made three attempts while under his roof.

I am trying to keep my head up Christ it seems I cant even make a freaking ham sandwich without crying. Megan used to do that for me I mentioned to her that she didn't put enough mustard on it so afterward she would make sure that I had enough mustard I didn't have the heart to tell her she was now putting too much mustard on it I just ate them and told her I loved her.

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question: scuicide and mental illness

by larrynbabies in

i am wondering if thier have been any recent studies done regarding a higher incident of scuicide and mental illness in the jw community

larrynbabies

I want to thank you for sharing that. I know how painful it is for me to even think about megan. I have found that besides therapy this is the best place I have found to at least get it out. When Megan died I could not spend another night in my home fortunately the twins happened to be in lancaster with thier aunt we had come up to columbus that weekend for my older sons birthday and we had to come back up on a tues for a cleft pallet appointment for one of the twins so peggy asked if she could watch them for a couple of days. So the first thing I needed to do after megans death was to go to my babies. We were living in N. ky at the time so I came up to lancaster. It was megans aunt who took care of the babies for those first weeks while I was trying to pull myself together. I dont know anyone here. I have no friends here. But I know that if I am to make it I will need the support of some of megans non jw family. I will do whatever it takes and I so much appreciate every thing they have done for me. I would be lost right now without them. But it is still very lonely and I find myself being shut in. which is bad. Since I have found this site I have been able to express feelings I havent been able to and it is therepudic. I wish Megan knew about this site I truely feel that she was alone in ways I could not help her. I read stories and it is almost as if she had written them. I feel so bad for all the people who have had to endure the experiences that this religion has caused. It seems like there is a no win situation trying live life as a jw. Life was not meant to have to bear the cross day after day it seems like some people take pride in it almost to the point that the bigger the cross the better. Well this is very sad because someone has already been there and done that, his name is jesus

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Serial Killers

by JackOliver in

hey, a friend of mine asked me a question the other day.

why are virtually all the serial killers white.

jack'

larrynbabies

now that I am in ohio I have renamed this practice a kentucky drive by

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Serial Killers

by JackOliver in

hey, a friend of mine asked me a question the other day.

why are virtually all the serial killers white.

jack'

larrynbabies

speaking of drive by's in southern calif I worked in an office where there were several cubicles and they were pretty small so for a joke if somebody needed to flatulate they would slowly walk past a cubicle and turn around drop the bob and walk away leaving the occupant with a funny look on thier face. we would call it a mexican drive by.

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new word for the day JEHOVENATE

by larrynbabies in

it was around 20 years ago that my friend and i were working in his garage.

at the same time his newly jw wife was having a meeting inside thier home.

for some reason she came out and started to complain that we were being to loud or something he became very upset with her and he told her to leave him alone and go back inside and go f$%^king jehovenate or what ever it is you people do.. sooo "jehovenate" definition: jehova witnesses in the act of performing there faith:

larrynbabies

It was around 20 years ago that my friend and I were working in his garage. At the same time his newly jw wife was having a meeting inside thier home. For some reason she came out and started to complain that we were being to loud or something he became very upset with her and he told her to leave him alone and go back inside and go F$%^king jehovenate or what ever it is you people do.

Sooo "JEHOVENATE" definition: jehova witnesses in the act of performing there faith:

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I know this sounds a bit mean but........

by doodle-v in

i've thought about buying a big dog and naming him satan.

so when jw's come to my door i can watch them run down the street when i yell.

sick em, satan!!.

larrynbabies

the witnesses came a knockin at our door and megan answered. when they introduced themselves megan simply stated she was disfellowshipped. they had a funny look on there faces and said "oh' and left.

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question: scuicide and mental illness

by larrynbabies in

i am wondering if thier have been any recent studies done regarding a higher incident of scuicide and mental illness in the jw community

larrynbabies

Hamas I am dealing with this myself when you wake up in the morning thinking about the pain you go to sleep at night with the pain and all there is in between is pain it is very easy to just more than think about it you actually start to reason in your mind how and when then it really gets scary when you find your self unconsiously preparing things around you like making a will. having innocent conversations with relatives about what would happen if you were to be killed what would happen to the kids cleaning up the house putting things in boxes leaving notes etc.etc. Yesterday I was in that place and feeling very sad and I sat on my couch and looked to the sky. I asked "god please help me"

It was 10 seconds later my older son cameup from playing his games and simply laid his head in my lap with out saying a word. thank you god

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question: scuicide and mental illness

by larrynbabies in

i am wondering if thier have been any recent studies done regarding a higher incident of scuicide and mental illness in the jw community

larrynbabies

I was told that in addition to my fiancee Megan that there have been 3 here in the fairfield county ohio area this month

If anyone reads this could they please let me know of any that they know of and what area did this take place.

Thanks

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question: scuicide and mental illness

by larrynbabies in

i am wondering if thier have been any recent studies done regarding a higher incident of scuicide and mental illness in the jw community

larrynbabies

I am wondering if thier have been any recent studies done regarding a higher incident of scuicide and mental illness in the JW community

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fiancee committed scuicide jw parents trying to steal my babies

by larrynbabies in

my fiancee died on feb24 she was suffering from years of abuse by her alchoholic jw parents.

she first tried to commit scuicide when she was 12 then 2 more times at 16. when she was 15 she snuck out to go to a party when she was raped she was too afraid to tell her parents.

the very next day her jw brother in law molested her.

larrynbabies

This morning when I woke up I read some of the more than suspicios comments and was very hurt by them. Thats the whole thing about this mess. On the surface it seems like how could this happen? That is why I chose this forum I thought who more than ex or present jw's could even concieve this as a possibility. (this is my nightmare)

Megans dad is very determined to keep my babies I am some what afraid to elaborate further on the subject because the facts seem to only present the case as even more unelievable. Megans oldest sister lori married at seventeen to a man in his mid thirties he was a member of the so called congregation. His name is trent he not only married lori but had an affair with lori and megans sister kendra starting at 15. The day after megans rape he molested her and shortly thereafter megan attempted suicide that left her in a coma four 5 days I think. When she woke up she saw trent in the room and started screaming for them to remove him from the room. A little later megan confided to kendra about the molestation. It was then for whatever reason kendra decided to write a long letter to her sister about the affair she had with trent. needless to say that marriage was over. What blows my mind is megans parents talk to trent on a regular basis and have even gone to a jimmy buffet concert with him. megan told me that he had been forgiven and that is why they continue to have a relationship with him.

Ken has hired private inestigators to dig up anything in my past that can cause the judge to look in thier favor. I dont know a single person who is in a position that given an opportunity for someone to go around opening the closets of ones life that skeletons will not fall out. that is my case. I am 42 and I have not been a angel but I can also say before god I have never done anything to cause someone harm. He has a memeberof his congregation who is wealthy and dying of cancer who has given him a subsantial amount of money to help him fight his battle. As he put it it is for a worthy cause. JW I dontknow the legqalities about this but before Megans death her parents and I were at least o what I thought was good terms. I even let him use a screen name on my aol account. after her death and the taking of my babies I did not see the benifit of providing this mane free internet access and e-mail privliges. It was after having the password reset when I found out about this wealthy member and his contribution of 25,000.00 dollars. In addition it was also then that I found out thier motiation because I recieved a letter the ken hiself had written to trent voicing his displeasure of megans sister lori attending the babtism stating that she is now on thier**** list.I guess there must be some kind of rule regarding jw's not being alowed to attend other churches?

Megans mother also stated to lori that if she did not recant her affidavit regarding physical and mental abuse that she would never be allowed to see the babies.