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fiancee committed scuicide jw parents trying to steal my babies

by larrynbabies in

my fiancee died on feb24 she was suffering from years of abuse by her alchoholic jw parents.

she first tried to commit scuicide when she was 12 then 2 more times at 16. when she was 15 she snuck out to go to a party when she was raped she was too afraid to tell her parents.

the very next day her jw brother in law molested her.

question: scuicide and mental illness

by larrynbabies in

i am wondering if thier have been any recent studies done regarding a higher incident of scuicide and mental illness in the jw community

fiancee committed scuicide jw parents trying to steal my babies

by larrynbabies in

my fiancee died on feb24 she was suffering from years of abuse by her alchoholic jw parents.

she first tried to commit scuicide when she was 12 then 2 more times at 16. when she was 15 she snuck out to go to a party when she was raped she was too afraid to tell her parents.

the very next day her jw brother in law molested her.

fiancee committed scuicide jw parents trying to steal my babies

by larrynbabies in

my fiancee died on feb24 she was suffering from years of abuse by her alchoholic jw parents.

she first tried to commit scuicide when she was 12 then 2 more times at 16. when she was 15 she snuck out to go to a party when she was raped she was too afraid to tell her parents.

the very next day her jw brother in law molested her.

my babies are 13mos 19 days old the court has order a guardian ad lietem I guess thats how it's spelled It is my understanding that he is to represent the kids or to intervene on the childrens behalf. I have a history that is somewhat less than desirable it doesnt mean I am a bad person it's just that I havent made the most sound decisions in the past I will admit that I havent had any problems legaly in 8 years and most of my issues center around smoking I have entered myself into a rehabilitation program of my own free will and will do what ever it takes to turn my life around. this is almost funny with the state of mind I am currently in. I am so sad it is killing me I hit these lows that seem impossible to recover from. I have never suffered from depression before.

I now have a VERY good understanding of what depression is at this point. I guess I would compare it to the grand canyon. Everyone has seen pictures of it and have seen it in the movies or on tv but untill you stand at the edge you dont have a clue. I do know this, the worst thing for me is not to have my babies they are all I have left of megan. When megan passed it was like having a huge part of me ripped away. Now with out my babies it's even larger if you can possibly imagine. I am so screwed up of all the postings I have made I just now noticed the freaking menu bar at the top of what I am writing let me take advantage of it and put a face to this. the first picture is of megan and the babies taken a week before she passed she is standing at the foot of our bed letting the babies say good night to daddy

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fiancee committed scuicide jw parents trying to steal my babies

by larrynbabies in

my fiancee died on feb24 she was suffering from years of abuse by her alchoholic jw parents.

she first tried to commit scuicide when she was 12 then 2 more times at 16. when she was 15 she snuck out to go to a party when she was raped she was too afraid to tell her parents.

the very next day her jw brother in law molested her.

larrynbabies

ohio

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fiancee committed scuicide jw parents trying to steal my babies

by larrynbabies in

my fiancee died on feb24 she was suffering from years of abuse by her alchoholic jw parents.

she first tried to commit scuicide when she was 12 then 2 more times at 16. when she was 15 she snuck out to go to a party when she was raped she was too afraid to tell her parents.

the very next day her jw brother in law molested her.

larrynbabies

I wanted to elaborate a little further because I hope people did not get the impression from my last post that just because my babies jw grandad got backing from a church member that that was some form of plea for financial assistance in fact it couldnt be further from the truth I have as much financial assistance as I need for this battle. I guess the reason I am posting is to vent my frustrations over this whole mess.

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question: scuicide and mental illness

by larrynbabies in

i am wondering if thier have been any recent studies done regarding a higher incident of scuicide and mental illness in the jw community

larrynbabies

I am trying the best I know how not to fall into megans footsteps. I have never in my life been so sad for so long and so deeply. I have just returned home from visiting my babies at thier aunt peggys house. We had an appointment today so my therapist can observe my babies and I interacting. It was a very positive visit I can be with them and there are times when everything is ok they can make me laugh and they can take my mind off of the pain of having lost my megan. then there are time when I look into my son chris's eyes and I see his mothers eyes in him and I cry I cant help it.

Going through this custody battle is killing me inside. I seem to have to give in to everyone and I cant get a break. Chris has long blond curly hair and is in need of his first haircut. You would think that it would be just a matter of making an apointment, getting a camcorder and getting it done. But nooooooooo. We have to get the JW granpa's permision. So we don't anger him and cause him to do something else that will cause us more grief. I swear that if his sister peggy is able to convince him to let us do it I am going to find some other blond curly hair to put into an envelope and give him as a souvenier.

The other twins name is Christopher he has a cleft pallet when he was 1 month old he was evaluated at childrens hospital and we set another apointment for 10 months later this apointment was his pre surgical appointment it was on feb 25 the day after megan passed away. His surgery was scheduled for 6 weeks later.

After his jw grandparents decievingly got temporary custody they canceled the surgery because it was to stressfull. We were informed last thurs that his surgery is set for the 21st of this month. Now we are scrambling around to get a court order that will allow him to recieve blood if he needs it. This guy is the devil incarnate it seems that he will do anything to cause me grief and to rub this whole situation in my face.

He blames me for megans scuicide and takes no responsibility himself. although his daughter made three attempts while under his roof.

I am trying to keep my head up Christ it seems I cant even make a freaking ham sandwich without crying. Megan used to do that for me I mentioned to her that she didn't put enough mustard on it so afterward she would make sure that I had enough mustard I didn't have the heart to tell her she was now putting too much mustard on it I just ate them and told her I loved her.

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question: scuicide and mental illness

by larrynbabies in

i am wondering if thier have been any recent studies done regarding a higher incident of scuicide and mental illness in the jw community

larrynbabies

I want to thank you for sharing that. I know how painful it is for me to even think about megan. I have found that besides therapy this is the best place I have found to at least get it out. When Megan died I could not spend another night in my home fortunately the twins happened to be in lancaster with thier aunt we had come up to columbus that weekend for my older sons birthday and we had to come back up on a tues for a cleft pallet appointment for one of the twins so peggy asked if she could watch them for a couple of days. So the first thing I needed to do after megans death was to go to my babies. We were living in N. ky at the time so I came up to lancaster. It was megans aunt who took care of the babies for those first weeks while I was trying to pull myself together. I dont know anyone here. I have no friends here. But I know that if I am to make it I will need the support of some of megans non jw family. I will do whatever it takes and I so much appreciate every thing they have done for me. I would be lost right now without them. But it is still very lonely and I find myself being shut in. which is bad. Since I have found this site I have been able to express feelings I havent been able to and it is therepudic. I wish Megan knew about this site I truely feel that she was alone in ways I could not help her. I read stories and it is almost as if she had written them. I feel so bad for all the people who have had to endure the experiences that this religion has caused. It seems like there is a no win situation trying live life as a jw. Life was not meant to have to bear the cross day after day it seems like some people take pride in it almost to the point that the bigger the cross the better. Well this is very sad because someone has already been there and done that, his name is jesus

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Serial Killers

by JackOliver in

hey, a friend of mine asked me a question the other day.

why are virtually all the serial killers white.

jack'

larrynbabies

now that I am in ohio I have renamed this practice a kentucky drive by

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Serial Killers

by JackOliver in

hey, a friend of mine asked me a question the other day.

why are virtually all the serial killers white.

jack'

larrynbabies

speaking of drive by's in southern calif I worked in an office where there were several cubicles and they were pretty small so for a joke if somebody needed to flatulate they would slowly walk past a cubicle and turn around drop the bob and walk away leaving the occupant with a funny look on thier face. we would call it a mexican drive by.