Hey thedog1,
I feel your pain. I am a current elder myself. I too have a named position in the congregation. Here is my first post from about 2 months ago:
http://www.jehovahs-witness.net/watchtower/beliefs/262639/1/An-Elder-Reads-CoC#.Uo_TNdJgDao"
The generation teaching thing is huge for me. I made big life decisons based around their "old light", and so did many people I care deeply about. This latest twist along with the other so-called "new light" is beyond disturbing. Oh, and thanks for the apology - gotta love them manning up and taking responsibility for screwing with people's minds, plans, lives, and futures. Anyways...
All of this is extremely bizarre to deal with, but more and more people seem to be coming out of the ether. Welcome. Feel free to PM me.