Posts by ohnightdivine

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I'm afraid I'd be single for life

by ohnightdivine in

this is quite embarrassing for me to share, but as a 30+ year old single female i have lingering doubts as to whether i can still meet a decent man and get married.. you all know how difficult it is for sisters to find an appropriate partner in the congregation.. and now, all the more so that i've learned ttatt.

i still am bound by low self-esteem, and i do have trust issues, especially with men.

i am very lonely and so i just keep myself busy with work to avoid depression (although it is also a great source of stress).. any other single females out there having similar thoughts?.

ohnightdivine

Thanks again for all your warm and wonderful comments.

I am posting here again because one of the younger elders is now sending me messages asking how I am doing...

But you see, I've liked him for many years now. :(

Aside from TTaTT, one of the reasons that is sustaining me from going back to the meetings is to avoid the guy. Because when I see him, my fondness for him just keeps growing.

He is a very intelligent (have worked with him before), kind, and has that charm I cannot forget after all these years. My heart is quite torn. I haven't told him I liked him. But I want to see him.

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I'm afraid I'd be single for life

by ohnightdivine in

this is quite embarrassing for me to share, but as a 30+ year old single female i have lingering doubts as to whether i can still meet a decent man and get married.. you all know how difficult it is for sisters to find an appropriate partner in the congregation.. and now, all the more so that i've learned ttatt.

i still am bound by low self-esteem, and i do have trust issues, especially with men.

i am very lonely and so i just keep myself busy with work to avoid depression (although it is also a great source of stress).. any other single females out there having similar thoughts?.

ohnightdivine

Wow, never thought there'd be a lot of responses to what I wrote.

I'm having a little break time from work and I can't help but smile, feeling positive energy from all of you. :)

The society I grew up in is quite conservative and more family-centric (among my siblings, I'm the only one living alone) compared to western countries, hence this lingering doubt and fear.

However, as most of you have said, I am fortunate to be out (at least, mentally for now) without getting married to a JW. I need to work on my self-esteem issues. I'm quite the confident-type at work but hate myself over my physical attributes (weight).

Anyway, thanks a lot for all the cheer! Looking forward to better days..

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What is your biggest gripe with the WT and it's teachings?

by FL_Panthers in

jw
friends

as the title says, please list what you find annoying with the organization..

ohnightdivine

Lies

Hypocrisy

Conditional love

Blind obedience

Lies

You are expected to question other beliefs, religions, but never the Watchtower.

For those who are still studying, please. Don't follow our footsteps.

As you can see, many of us here have been traumatized, our lives wasted on nothing..

And here are some of us trying to keep our sanity or heal ourselves.

Please, don't make the same mistake as we did.

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I'm afraid I'd be single for life

by ohnightdivine in

this is quite embarrassing for me to share, but as a 30+ year old single female i have lingering doubts as to whether i can still meet a decent man and get married.. you all know how difficult it is for sisters to find an appropriate partner in the congregation.. and now, all the more so that i've learned ttatt.

i still am bound by low self-esteem, and i do have trust issues, especially with men.

i am very lonely and so i just keep myself busy with work to avoid depression (although it is also a great source of stress).. any other single females out there having similar thoughts?.

ohnightdivine

Thank you all for your responses. I'd have to agree that I need to love myself first.

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I'm afraid I'd be single for life

by ohnightdivine in

this is quite embarrassing for me to share, but as a 30+ year old single female i have lingering doubts as to whether i can still meet a decent man and get married.. you all know how difficult it is for sisters to find an appropriate partner in the congregation.. and now, all the more so that i've learned ttatt.

i still am bound by low self-esteem, and i do have trust issues, especially with men.

i am very lonely and so i just keep myself busy with work to avoid depression (although it is also a great source of stress).. any other single females out there having similar thoughts?.

ohnightdivine

I just tried eHarmony. After spending 15 minutes answering numerous questions, I got an "I'm sorry but we could not find any match for you."

Aww, I think I have too much time today. Must... log off...

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I'm afraid I'd be single for life

by ohnightdivine in

this is quite embarrassing for me to share, but as a 30+ year old single female i have lingering doubts as to whether i can still meet a decent man and get married.. you all know how difficult it is for sisters to find an appropriate partner in the congregation.. and now, all the more so that i've learned ttatt.

i still am bound by low self-esteem, and i do have trust issues, especially with men.

i am very lonely and so i just keep myself busy with work to avoid depression (although it is also a great source of stress).. any other single females out there having similar thoughts?.

ohnightdivine

This is quite embarrassing for me to share, but as a 30+ year old single female I have lingering doubts as to whether I can still meet a decent man and get married.

You all know how difficult it is for sisters to find an appropriate partner in the congregation.. and now, all the more so that I've learned TTATT. I still am bound by low self-esteem, and I do have trust issues, especially with men. I am very lonely and so I just keep myself busy with work to avoid depression (although it is also a great source of stress).

Any other single females out there having similar thoughts?

How are you coping?

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Were you 100% in?

by pontoon in

i was baptized in 1968. last meeting 2010. i have to say i was never 100% in.

there were times i absolutely believed, but i never really gave it my all.

never liked service, assemblies, meetings.

ohnightdivine

100% for a few days... most of the time it was only around 75%.

Not a born-in. Longed for friendship / companionship.

The teachings were just too "radical" for me.

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How to find joy in the ministry, according to one elder

by ohnightdivine in

he said that having a goal is the most important, since we do not want to waste our time and become depressed when going out in the ministry.. and what else could be better than setting a goal to, say, distribute xx number of magazines during that day?!.

in this way we could feel contented and joyful in service.. .

how profound!

ohnightdivine

Exactly, Ding... so sad.

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How to find joy in the ministry, according to one elder

by ohnightdivine in

he said that having a goal is the most important, since we do not want to waste our time and become depressed when going out in the ministry.. and what else could be better than setting a goal to, say, distribute xx number of magazines during that day?!.

in this way we could feel contented and joyful in service.. .

how profound!

ohnightdivine

During the talk I was so upset I couldn't hide my disgust and kept on sighing. That elder especially talks and sounds intelligent but this time again,

"encouraging" people, mostly adults with that meaningless talk is beyond my comprehension.

"Distribute more magazines, and be happy!!! If you're not happy with that, something is wrong with you." Something like this, right?

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How to find joy in the ministry, according to one elder

by ohnightdivine in

he said that having a goal is the most important, since we do not want to waste our time and become depressed when going out in the ministry.. and what else could be better than setting a goal to, say, distribute xx number of magazines during that day?!.

in this way we could feel contented and joyful in service.. .

how profound!

ohnightdivine

He said that having a goal is the most important, since we do not want to waste our time and become depressed when going out in the ministry.

And what else could be better than setting a goal to, say, distribute xx number of magazines during that day?!

In this way we could feel contented and joyful in service.

That's what he said. How profound! I am so grateful for this timely reminder from the publishing corporation! ;)