Posts by ohnightdivine

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Caleb asks his Dad a question.

by LogCon in

caleb: dad, can i ask you a question?.

dad: of course, my son.

havent i told you that you can come to me whenever you have a question?.

ohnightdivine

And they held hands as they walked into the... wherever.

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Caleb asks his Dad a question.

by LogCon in

caleb: dad, can i ask you a question?.

dad: of course, my son.

havent i told you that you can come to me whenever you have a question?.

ohnightdivine

Dad: We wrestle with the demons, son. What were you thinking?!

Caleb: Oh, I thought you had something else in mind.

Dad: Something in my mind? What is that?

Caleb: It's the element of a person that enables them to be aware of their world and their experiences. But, that's not important right now..

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I'm afraid I'd be single for life

by ohnightdivine in

this is quite embarrassing for me to share, but as a 30+ year old single female i have lingering doubts as to whether i can still meet a decent man and get married.. you all know how difficult it is for sisters to find an appropriate partner in the congregation.. and now, all the more so that i've learned ttatt.

i still am bound by low self-esteem, and i do have trust issues, especially with men.

i am very lonely and so i just keep myself busy with work to avoid depression (although it is also a great source of stress).. any other single females out there having similar thoughts?.

ohnightdivine

That is true, Apognophos.

On the other hand I try to think that he is looking at me as spiritually weak, and never a good marriage material.

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What would be your favorite job if you could do anything.?

by new hope and happiness in

on the basis that most of us realise the w.t wasnt really the best " job" or way to spend our days, it would be fun to find out what people would really have liked to have done with there lifes and if this is still possible.

or maybe its not even a very realistic ambition just a dream.

in my dreams i stay at home all day and make a living from being a professional artist.maybe i need a phycholgist?.

ohnightdivine

Astronaut

Pianist

Soprano

Dancer

Forensics Expert

Egyptologist

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I'm afraid I'd be single for life

by ohnightdivine in

this is quite embarrassing for me to share, but as a 30+ year old single female i have lingering doubts as to whether i can still meet a decent man and get married.. you all know how difficult it is for sisters to find an appropriate partner in the congregation.. and now, all the more so that i've learned ttatt.

i still am bound by low self-esteem, and i do have trust issues, especially with men.

i am very lonely and so i just keep myself busy with work to avoid depression (although it is also a great source of stress).. any other single females out there having similar thoughts?.

ohnightdivine

Thanks again for all your warm and wonderful comments.

I am posting here again because one of the younger elders is now sending me messages asking how I am doing...

But you see, I've liked him for many years now. :(

Aside from TTaTT, one of the reasons that is sustaining me from going back to the meetings is to avoid the guy. Because when I see him, my fondness for him just keeps growing.

He is a very intelligent (have worked with him before), kind, and has that charm I cannot forget after all these years. My heart is quite torn. I haven't told him I liked him. But I want to see him.

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I'm afraid I'd be single for life

by ohnightdivine in

this is quite embarrassing for me to share, but as a 30+ year old single female i have lingering doubts as to whether i can still meet a decent man and get married.. you all know how difficult it is for sisters to find an appropriate partner in the congregation.. and now, all the more so that i've learned ttatt.

i still am bound by low self-esteem, and i do have trust issues, especially with men.

i am very lonely and so i just keep myself busy with work to avoid depression (although it is also a great source of stress).. any other single females out there having similar thoughts?.

ohnightdivine

Wow, never thought there'd be a lot of responses to what I wrote.

I'm having a little break time from work and I can't help but smile, feeling positive energy from all of you. :)

The society I grew up in is quite conservative and more family-centric (among my siblings, I'm the only one living alone) compared to western countries, hence this lingering doubt and fear.

However, as most of you have said, I am fortunate to be out (at least, mentally for now) without getting married to a JW. I need to work on my self-esteem issues. I'm quite the confident-type at work but hate myself over my physical attributes (weight).

Anyway, thanks a lot for all the cheer! Looking forward to better days..

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What is your biggest gripe with the WT and it's teachings?

by FL_Panthers in

jw
friends

as the title says, please list what you find annoying with the organization..

ohnightdivine

Lies

Hypocrisy

Conditional love

Blind obedience

Lies

You are expected to question other beliefs, religions, but never the Watchtower.

For those who are still studying, please. Don't follow our footsteps.

As you can see, many of us here have been traumatized, our lives wasted on nothing..

And here are some of us trying to keep our sanity or heal ourselves.

Please, don't make the same mistake as we did.

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I'm afraid I'd be single for life

by ohnightdivine in

this is quite embarrassing for me to share, but as a 30+ year old single female i have lingering doubts as to whether i can still meet a decent man and get married.. you all know how difficult it is for sisters to find an appropriate partner in the congregation.. and now, all the more so that i've learned ttatt.

i still am bound by low self-esteem, and i do have trust issues, especially with men.

i am very lonely and so i just keep myself busy with work to avoid depression (although it is also a great source of stress).. any other single females out there having similar thoughts?.

ohnightdivine

Thank you all for your responses. I'd have to agree that I need to love myself first.

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I'm afraid I'd be single for life

by ohnightdivine in

this is quite embarrassing for me to share, but as a 30+ year old single female i have lingering doubts as to whether i can still meet a decent man and get married.. you all know how difficult it is for sisters to find an appropriate partner in the congregation.. and now, all the more so that i've learned ttatt.

i still am bound by low self-esteem, and i do have trust issues, especially with men.

i am very lonely and so i just keep myself busy with work to avoid depression (although it is also a great source of stress).. any other single females out there having similar thoughts?.

ohnightdivine

I just tried eHarmony. After spending 15 minutes answering numerous questions, I got an "I'm sorry but we could not find any match for you."

Aww, I think I have too much time today. Must... log off...

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I'm afraid I'd be single for life

by ohnightdivine in

this is quite embarrassing for me to share, but as a 30+ year old single female i have lingering doubts as to whether i can still meet a decent man and get married.. you all know how difficult it is for sisters to find an appropriate partner in the congregation.. and now, all the more so that i've learned ttatt.

i still am bound by low self-esteem, and i do have trust issues, especially with men.

i am very lonely and so i just keep myself busy with work to avoid depression (although it is also a great source of stress).. any other single females out there having similar thoughts?.

ohnightdivine

This is quite embarrassing for me to share, but as a 30+ year old single female I have lingering doubts as to whether I can still meet a decent man and get married.

You all know how difficult it is for sisters to find an appropriate partner in the congregation.. and now, all the more so that I've learned TTATT. I still am bound by low self-esteem, and I do have trust issues, especially with men. I am very lonely and so I just keep myself busy with work to avoid depression (although it is also a great source of stress).

Any other single females out there having similar thoughts?

How are you coping?