I’ve always considered myself a Christian. Even before I was roped into the world of Dubs at the age of 7, I attended a Baptist church. It never entered my mind that the Bible wasn’t Gods word and that Jesus was or wasn’t the Son of God. Even spending 15 years as a Jehovah’s wickedness (As my Auntie used to call them) I always had respect for almost all Christian religions.
Recently I decided to question my faith. I think it was a combination of conversations on this forum, my children asking me questions about life and death and recent press announcements regarding Christianity and homosexuality. I borrowed a “proper” bible from a friend, sat down and over two months read the thing from cover to cover. Genesis to Revelations. A God of vengeance, hatred and contradiction to a God that displays no logic at all.
Strangely, for the first time in my life, God came alive. I didn’t look for this to happen, it just hit me like a hammer. All the questions I had up to this point were answered in a way that the questions no longer seemed important. And for the first time I can now say that I am no longer a Christian. If anything the bible had detracted my attention away from God. It is nothing more than supernatural mythology that has been studied, twisted and used to control and abuse. I found myself laughing out loud at some of the absurdities found within its pages.
When I told my wife of my recent thoughts, she admitted that she was a little concerned. She conciders herself Christian and lives her life accordingly. Initially I found her concern rather strange, until she asked me if I believed in God.
“I’d be a stupid man not to believe in God” was my answer. I explained that I felt no reason to follow ancient mythology, their codes and writings, when God has provided us with so much more. I don’t need a rulebook to tell me what is right and wrong. That in itself is a gift from God. Look around. Look at creation. Look at the heavens at night. Look at our Children. Look at the discovery’s of science. These things say more to me about our creator than any book, any religion or any man could.
I now truly do love my God for the first time in my life. Sorry for rambling.
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