Welcome GrownMidget, I hope you'll find inner peace one day. I've learned that the best place to search for that, is inside yourself... Nobody outside you can 'give' it to you.
And sometimes a break from reading ex-JW stuff can be helpful (but I know from experience that it stays a part of your life when you still have relatives that are JWs, so you'll be drawn back to the ex-JW stuff every now and then, but I try to not let it hit me emotionally what other people experience or have experienced. It's their 'stories', and I've got enough dealing with my own 'stories').
Anyway, I'm glad you decided to take a different road than your father! Well done!
Hugs,
Bruja