third post about the big disappointments that woke me up.
i'm writing them in no particular order.
these episodes made me bitter when they happened.
They are just men. Nothing special, no holy spirit appointing them. But the time they get to the point of being a CO.....they would have experienced exactly how there is no holy spirit so many of them are frauds looking after their own lifestyles.
Kate xx
recently i have just started looking into what buddhism is all about.
i rather like the idea of a personal spirituality.
of trying to be a better person and an acceptance of the reality of life and trying to find an inner peace and contentment.. anyway, i came across this today.
My brother married a Buddhist wife in Vietnam. They have some cultish rituals and superstitions. I think all religion is about control myself and am happy away from it. I feel I have good morals and a sense of justice. I follow the philosophy of many who say "Be nice"
Kate xx
my wife is shunning me.
she is always in cult mode, we don't talk anymore, we don't sleep in the same bed.
i have been sleeping on the couch.
GTTM,
After 27 years I am so sorry you are going through this. It's nice to hear you still love your wife. If that's the case there is hope.
I have faith in you GTTM, you will make this work. Go back to your bed now.
Take care
Kate xx
like it is so annoying.
as tired as i am and as painful these meetings are to listen to, i can not for the life of me fall asleep.
might close my eyes for 30 seconds but that seems to make me even more awake.
Krejames,
Lol yes that's the case with me at times. Very interesting.
Kate xx
i was just talking to my mom a few weeks ago.
she said, out of all her kids, i was the only one she didn't have to worry about as far as spirituality.
i always took a stand for jehovah.. she told when all of her kids were little, she gave us the option of not eating birthday cakes in school.
I may have wasted an opportunity to tell her why... Maybe I should have... Maybe I should just confide in her...- cognac
I don't think you wasted an opportunity at all. You have good critical thinking skills and can make good decisions. some on this board are too hasty and mess things up others don't say a thing and stay in. We all have different circumstances and I think you have very good balance,
Kate xx
i don't refer to anything sexually explicit of course.. i mean, in general.
do you dream of owning a big house, a football team, the perfect body.......er paradise earth?.
i'll start:.
I dream of my son all the time
Kate xx
so it's been a few months since i last went to a meeting but i've still had lots of guilty feelings about leaving, such as am i doing the right thing, thinking about friends and family, where do i go from here etc etc.
but i think once you stop believing you can't go back.. anyway, today i had a very nice experience.
my daughter had been to nursery today and when she got home i asked her what she had done and she excitedly told me they had been doing pumpkins.
I am so jealous of you all you guys having a great time with the build up to Halloween and Guy Fawkes night. My kids are older now. Trying to get my 22yr old to come to a Halloween party or ghost walk with me. Not much luck so far.
I am going to get my son to arrange to go to a fireworks display with a few school friends he is a teenager and I want him to develop independence and free thinking.
Kate xx
a reflection on the importance of acknowledging that we can all be manipulated.. this is an excellent presentation on the problems with leaving the group, problems with disagreeing with the group, why recruiting children is important to religions.. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iauhr-trkhy.
How exactly are those guys going to "finance" anything? - Sir82
The GB have no long term solution to their short term problem of lack of funds and law suits. They are too stubborn to start to recommend higher education. But where do they think they're going to be in 30/40 yrs. They obviously don't care about the long term survival of the WT.
I can see new leaders coming in and changing things, afraid I can't see the collapse of the WT
Kate xx
just a wee warning on following links to jwtalk (jwt).
if you are a member there then it is very easy for the mods to identify if you have come in from this site.
they will then ban you.. so, if you are member here and trying to lurk there then don't click on any links to jwt, just copy and paste the link into a new browser tab..
Yes really if you're awake, it's not the most productive place to be.
Kate xx
most everyone was very nice.
i did get a couple of we miss you soooo much and an elder that said he might drop by someday to say hello when he gets a chance....i'm already prepared for him if he should show up.. over all, it got finished and i'm going to bed..
Hope you get through this Min, don't let that elder get you down and don't stress over him. i know it's easier said than done but we are all here for you.
Kate xx
