Sorry to hear about this nic,
My parents were never JWs and I had someone to run to when I was Df'd, my daughter faded too and my son is out too.
It sounds like even though I have been out two years I am more out than you due to my circumstances.
I am so sorry this cult has put such a terrible strain on your relationship with your mum, and you still feel there are things left unsaid. It's so frustrating for me as I want to stop you feeling so restricted.
Sorry Nic
Kate xx