Kulotti,
It was really nice that you were bought groceries when you were sick. But they count it all as time. I genuinely cared when I was a JW and I still genuinely care.
You will have to suppress your personality and your true self if you ever get baptised. You will never have a partner unless you go straight.
It was the kindness that got me in too, but it was the lack of love that opened my eyes when I needed it most.
Thanks for reading all the advice
Kate xx