In my case, waiting for marriage was a disaster. I cried myself to sleep on my wedding night. I just thought "That was it?" Also I was so ashamed that I didn't leave our apartment for a week. I though people would look at me and know what I had been doing. Because it was a terrible sin one day and okey dokey the next. Messed with my poor 19 year old head.
I also found out that I was not in the least attracted to my new husband, which is probably the real reason I cried myself to sleep on my wedding night and for many nights after. Of course I cried quietly and only after he was asleep because a good wife wouldn't keep her husband awake with her misery.
Sad and funny memories,
Deb