you know its funny......... all the time in the TROOF there were the smiles and the fake love........... and then the feelings of unworth or never being able to measure up to this heavenly standard....... doing all you can, pioneering even, holding a position with privledges to help the others in the hall, studying for all the meetings, takeing care of all the publications so that you could place them with the most people. and then when the wool gets pulled from your eyes............. you think what a waste both of time and energy and then the money you contributed at every opportunityand wished you had more to spare.
me myself i never lived the double life, i might occasionally quit going to meetings and watched omg R rated movies but i never ran wild. i have on many occasions wished that the things my COMMON SENSE finally convinced me were wrong in the org, were somehow simplymistakes on my part and that i could be shown the light...... lol YEAH RIGHT. the light they have continueously gets dimmer i think as there sins are pointed out for everyone to see. i will admit to being happy knowing that i wasnt part of the many wrongs and brainwashing that is what makes up the (B)org but not happy in life because of not having the "worldly" friends for a social life outside. now i have friends from here and other places and many are special friends and one is a very special friend and with yall it makes life truely the adventure it should be rather than the depressing endless failure that it was under the borgs influence. you have to ditch your family to be a witness............. and when they ditch you............. you get another family...... a family of X's. xjws that is