I'm slowly trying to fade. My immediate family shuns me even though I am not Df/DA. I am only fading because of my daughter who is totally torn.
I have been a single mom for all of her life and because of that was never included in any circle of the cliques. I was a nuisance to the elders and never once had a shepherding call.
They dont have the time to encourage but will certainly pounce when they believe you have done something wrong.
Is there anyway you could fade now?
As far as heeling, this religion has taught me to cut people out of my life on a moments notice. I have actually just started reconnecting with ones I grew up with that left before me. It has helped a lot and I know those relationships are unconditional.