In retrospect, I find that I quit taking notes at district conventions, assemblies, etc. but began taking notes in the elders meetings of the "rules and regulations. I remember in the elders meetings about making recommendations that one brother would not be recommended because in a "certain" situation not enough time that passed. But then another brother who had family members who were elders/or elder friends (get the idea) was recommended as elder/Mservant despite having the identical "certain" situation but a lessor amount of time.
When I was just a puppy "elder" I was naive, but after taking notes at the elders meetings of the rules and regulations and reviewing them over months and years, even sometimes reviewing my notes in the elders meetings and bringing my notes up that as a body "we" passed over one brother but were willing to recommend another, I suddenly became unpopular. As if the other elders recognized that I didn't agree/understand with their way of having a "spiritual" discussion about someones spiritual qualifications and at the same time showing an unfairness.
I'm just happy that I'm out and that my wife is with me, although a bit behind. Our life is free of the soap opera's so prevalent in the "Chistian Congregation of Jehovah's Witnesses". A life without congregational drama, at last. (Sung to the "Life without end at last" song)