If you need a crutch go right ahead...but religion is not the only crutch.
Some people use alcohol, drugs because they can't handle reality,
They seem to always rely on something other than themselves to handle life,
Life is not always easy and sometimes deals us a bad hand.
There is always help if you seek it more importantly if you really want to call the shots for yourself it's YOUR LIFE !!
Why let anyone else mess with it.
I hope things go well for you whatever you decide,
Best wishes.