A watcher...you say the GB (fds) are your brothers who give you wise counsel and you decide IF and HOW you apply it.
Is their wise counsel not ' food at the proper time'?
That being the case you MUST consume it NO CHOICE or you will spiritually starve and we know how they treat spiritually weak dissenters.
Are you sure it is wise for you to choose which bits of counsel (food) which they so lovingly provide for your consumption?
Best wishes