Dear Tyrone's Brother,
The meeting point of this sight, as I understand it, is most of us have discovered that the WTBTS is not Jehovah's Organization. That is not to say there are not true belivers in the organization, but through research and study we have learned there is much wrong with the society. and many of us can't conscienciously continue to attend a place that has made false prophecy, flip-flopped on doctrine and still call themselves God's People. You know what the test for a false prophet is...
I know it upsets and panics you to even consider that. We all went through that. One of the main reasons you are not supposed to talk to, what they consider, "apostate's", is because they will tell you truth the society is keeping from you. I believe the Watchtower has made statements to the effect, one should not fear holding their beliefs up to scrutiny. I encourage you to scrutinize yours. You can't compare it with itself, you must consider it against outside information.
Before you do this, I encourage you to pray to Jehovah-and then search. If you ask for bread he will not hand you a stone!