Welcome, Onthefence!!! I applaude you for walking away and, lucky you, that you have family that you can turn to and be accepted for who you are, not for what you believe. This forum will give you the place to explore your own feelings, vent and cry when those times arise....I haven't had to do that myself yet, but know that its a safe haven for a person leaving the WTS.
I also urge you to read read read...study your Bible and if you haven't, then SWITCH translations....I started using the NIV and it has opened up scripture to me that never meant anything before....also, read Ray Franz books, it will help you get over the guilt when you understand that God is NOT leading this organization...there's alot of information about JW's at different sites, browse through them, educate yourself about what this religion is REALLY about....it will help you get OFF the fence!
Its hard, I know, I'm still working at fading myself, but mentally I was FREE of them many months ago...all of the things I've told you helped me, I just want to share.....hope we hear more from you...keep us posted, ok? Bythesea