The 'thing' is... dear Naeblis (and of course, may you have peace)... that the Father that I have come to know... and come to be known BY... is a God of loving kindness... AS WELL AS a God of 'acts of VENGEANCE'. Tell you what: let's take a look at that word 'vengeance', shall we?
According to Merriam-Webster:
"punishment inflicted in retaliation for an injury or offense"
Hmmmm... in 'retaliation'. That would IMPLY that some other 'act' occurred first, yes? At least, it does to ME. What say you?
Okay, according to Cambridge International:
"the punishing of someone for harming you or your friends or family, or the desire for such punishment to happen"
Hmmmm... someone being punished for harming me or my friends or family. Heck, that happens in THIS 'system of things' every day. Yes? WE... earthling man... do it all the time. Yes? And can 'justify' as we need to. Yes?
Random House: "punishment inflicted as a revenge; retribution."
Oxford: "punishment inflicted or retribution exacted for an injury or wrong."
Well, now. Vengeance APPEARS to be... well, 'payback'. Yes? Okay, now we know what 'vengeance' IS. Do we know who can EXACT vengeance... who is the one with that RIGHT? Let's take a look see, shall we? Nooo... YOU look them up:
Deut. 32:35
Isaiah 34:8
Isaiah 61:2
2 Thessalonians 1:8
Deuteronomy 32:41
Jeremiah 50:28
Nahum 1:2
Psalm 99:8
Hebrews 10:30, 31
Okay, NOW let's examine the phrase 'God-given right'. Ever heard that one, Naeb? Sure you have. Folks like us 'invoke' such rights all the time. Now, since you sort of profess a BELIEF in God yet still ("I have not chosen to ignore the loving acts of god in the bible"...), let's look at that phrase with regard to Israel... as well as those who supposedly 'belong' to God and Christ in general. In other words, do WE have the 'God-given right' to exact vengeance? Nope, sorry... you're gonna have to look these up, too.
Leviticus 19:18
Romans 12:19
Things that make you go... hmmmm...
Know what I find SO 'peculiar', though, Naeb, with folks like you?(Actually, I find it 'amusing') Is that you BELIEVE the acts of vengeance, so as to have an animosity toward my Father... and yet, you have NO fear with regard 'checking His hand'! I mean, IF, dear one, my Father is such an 'exacting' God, such a 'forceful' and 'unforgiving' God... such a hateful, angry, malicious God... what in the WORLD makes YOU think YOU... with your puny mere exhalation of an existence... are going to be OVERLOOKED in the day of His 'vengeance' when YOU... have, in essence... mocked and called down evil upon Him? What makes YOU think you will 'get away'... with checking His hand?
Methinks you need to 'figure out' just what it is that you BELIEVE, Naeb, dear. 'Cause if He DOESN'T exist... or if He DOESN'T
'exact vengeance'... then your anger... is moot. But if He DOES... then your HEART... is eventually going to cause your MOUTH... to sin against Him. And indeed, if He IS a God of 'acts of vengeance', SURELY... you don't want to 'fall into His hands' for the sins of YOUR mouth. Do you?
My advice to you? As someone here so succinctly puts in their "motto" line... 'get in, sit down, shut up... and hold on.' In other words, wait and SEE. Wait and SEE if there is a justification... and explanation. If so, then you are out of line. If not, then... well, 'call' Him on it. But do it like a MAN... face to face.
Oh, and with regard to the babies, the word of my Lord to YOU, Naeblis, is that do YOU know the 'inclination of man'... from the womb? Do YOU know what he will turn out to be? Do YOU know who is conceived TODAY... that will grow up and persecute the 'seed', the 'sons' of God... the CHRIST... TOMORROW? The word of my Lord to YOU, O Naeblis, is that no... you don't.
Take a warning, Naeblis... out of the HEART'S abundance... the MOUTH... speaks. Check your 'heart', dear one. For it SEEMS that you are 'in want' of some [heart].
My peace... remains still.
YOUR servant... and a slave of Christ,
SJ