Welcome Scattered and Grammy!
While I was an active sincere JW kid of around 12, I was home alone one summer day reading the book of John. When I read what Jesus said to Nicodemus I actually got down on my knees and asked Jesus to be born again, whatever it was, I wanted it. I had a feeling come over me that is indescribable. I was so excited that when my mom got home I told her about my experience and she wasn't as happy as I was about it. So I never told anyone. But I can look back and see the presence of God in my life since then. It took many more years before I finally was free.
I went through a rather long slow transition from a relationship with the Society, to a very close and personal relationship with God through Jesus. I studied Bible versians and Greek for a couple years but my mind was not set free until the Holy Spirit through Jesus revealed Himself to me in a rather miraculous way.
Luke 11:13 - If you then, who are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will the heavenly Father give the Holy Spirit to those who ask him!"
John 14:26 - But the Counselor, the Holy Spirit, whom the Father will send in my name, he will teach you all things, and bring to your remembrance all that I have said to you.
Acts 1:8 - But you shall receive power when the Holy Spirit has come upon you; and you shall be my witnesses in Jerusalem and in all Judea and Sama'ria and to the end of the earth." (Jesus' witnesses!)
I had to totally relearn the entire Bible. The truth is, God does speak to us. I completly understand ScatteredSheep. Love~Kate