Hi Bridgette,
I'm relatively new to my path as well. I've spent many years avoiding religion all together, and a lot of it had to do with fear of being controlled - about 12 years ago I was involved with a JW and at that time considered joining the [b]org. He and I used to have long discussions that usually turned into arguments about God and religion and my beliefs were always Pagan in nature which upset him very much, but I realized there was no way I could change what I believed. I was so devastated by that relationship that I used to shake every time I saw JWs in the neighborhood. I was actually afraid of them and it turned me off of religion all together for many years.
I started reading about Wicca specifically and Paganism in general when my husband [a former Catholic] got some books from a friend of his. Nothing ever connected with me so deeply and for about a year I've been studying everything I can get my hands on. I guess I'd call myself a Pagan Universalist at this point but my beliefs are still evolving. I found it's such a better way to look at life, as something to be celebrated and a never-ending cycle. I could never imagine living life as though the world were going to end any minute and believing that some people will be destroyed forever and never have a second chance.
Best wishes on your journey - I hope you enjoy it as much as I am.
Silverleaf