Danion,I can't help you with the rest of your post but this made bells ring. You are mixed up regarding your sexuality so you think you can sort it out with a prostitute?!?!
I once knew a girl who I'd been told was once a prostitute and to cut a long story short we ended up in bed. Now I liked her, she liked me and I pride myself on the fact that I like to think of myself as not being judgemental and I thought I wouldn't be bothered by her past.
Things were great up until she started making noises and then her past just came flooding back to me. I couldn't get the idea out of my head that in the past she'd probably faked these same noises with her clients and that she was probably doing so with me. I couldn't shake the idea that she was treating me and the whole experience as yet another "job" and I lost interest completely.
For *me* the whole sex with an (ex) prostitute was a major head f*ck and I can only imagine how someone like you with no sexual experience would probably be freaked out by it. If you want my two cents, don't do it.
Well I opted to knot go down that road. It was giveing me so much grief. This is what got me realizeing that I may be gay. I have had many chances but always came up with a reason to not do it. Should I try it with a man and see how I feel?